Night dreaming before bed (poem)

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I can't sleep. I am up all day and tired yet I can not sleep. I hear these noises of my head and the creaking of my bed

 why can't it stop! 

It's screaming at me keeping my eyes ajar from afar I see it in the distance I'm beautiful I'm strong I've got it all 

My dream has came so true yet these tears stream down my face with a boiling brew 

I cry till I cry no more

 God help me

 I'm on the floor

 stop them from telling me I can be strong I can get skinny I can get better 

there's no such thing it's all too hard

I told you once 

I'm fine 

ok? 

don't worry about me I'll fly someday

 today is not that day to fly 

for I have to walk a million miles 

to reach my goal 

to reach my dream 

to reach what hasn't been seen 

before I sleep I tell myself

 tomorrows a new day

 get yourself to bed before you wake

 your dream is here and here to quake