WARNING; angst
I'm building this house on the moon, like a lost astronaut.
I lay on the bed, staring at the dull white ceiling with clouded eyes. My earbud slipped out of my ear, the music still continued playing, I could hear the faint sound of it. I turned my head slightly, now staring at the white earpiece on the sheets next to me. The music suddenly stopped, and I felt my phone vibrate inside my pocket. I reached indolently inside my pocket, glancing at the caller ID. It was one of my friends. I lightly tossed the device next to the earbud that started playing the song again.
Looking at you, like a star, from a place the world forgot.
I wasn't sure how to describe how I was feeling, but it wasn't a pleasant one. It filled me with nothingness, if that makes any sense. I was having one of my frequent episodes of depression. I wouldn't call myself depressed, but I wasn't quite happy either. These past few weeks I haven't been up for anything and was generally unhappy.
That time's trigger was love.
I was madly in love with my best friend's brother. The thing was, I was quite sure he doesn't like me back, and it just made me feel down. I knew it was petty of me to feel depressed because of love, because of a boy, but I couldn't stop the feeling.
And there's nothing I can do, except bury my love for you.
I turned to my side, staring through half-lidded eyes at my reflection on the mirror across the room. I quickly turned on my back again to avoid looking at the ugly mess that is me. I returned to staring at the ceiling as thought I'd rather not think about crept into my mind.
The brightness of the sun will give me just enough, to bury my love, in the Moondust.
I frowned. I shouldn't be selfish, if my crush doesn't want to be in a relationship with me, I shouldn't force him into something he doesn't want. I sighed in aggravation, my emotions getting the best of me. I shouldn't let them take control. My phone vibrated again, that time, it was my best friend. I swiped at the screen and Anne's voice immediately filled the silent room.
'Hey, can you come over? I'm gonna pick you up and then maybe we can get some coffee.'
I hummed, and almost immediately my spirits lifted, somehow, she always managed to brighten my day even without knowing it. I hummed as a reply, a ghost of a smile on my face.
'Great! I'll be there in a few.'
She hung up after that, and I got out of my bed, feeling a little bit better. I quickly rinsed my face, and changed out of my pyjamas into more presentable clothes.
I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice to bury my love in the Moondust.
The music in my earbuds continued playing into my ear as I waited for my friend to come around. I hummed along, deciding to play a more upbeat song to cheer me up, it seemed to making a slight difference, but nothing more.
A few minutes later I was in the car with Anne and my brother, who tagged along since he was quite close friends with Anne's brother. I was jealous, but I didn't let it show.
We stopped by a nearby cafe and ordered our drinks before driving home. Anne wouldn't let me go without ordering anything, I wasn't really in the mood to eat, but I ate the cookie just for her sake.
Nothing can breathe in the space, colder than the darkest sea.
The house was full of people, Anne's aunts and uncles were there, her cousins and siblings, everyone. I didn't mind them much, her relatives were really fun. Anne and I watched a movie alone in her room, she played it on her television so we could have a better view.
