Swinging back and forth
As the sweet breeze brush over me
And the sun blinding me
Hands softly pressed on my back
A gentle push cared me so far
I was so high,
I felt as that I was flying with birds
I've never felt so free
Then all of sudden it stopped
Reality came crashing down on me
Crushing me like a can someone threw away
Numb, I started to think everything was a dream
But one of those dreams were it's good,
then bad, and good again but then all sudden it's bad
So you wake up, oh you go "oh crap its Monday" so everything repeats again
My young eyes and ears listen and saw everything
I saw the good things in life, like the way my grandfather's eyes lit up every time he saw me
I saw the bad things like seeing my grandmother dead body
but not understanding why she wasn't breathing
I heard every whisper behind me made as I stepped outside
I heard every laugh and comment.
So then I decided to become deaf to those people but only still heard just enough to make me cry at night.
I also started to see the things other people would have
grandmother dead body
but not understanding why she wasn't breathing
I heard every whisper behind me made as I stepped outside
I heard every laugh and comment.
So then I decided to become deaf to those people but only still heard just enough to make me cry at night.
and decided to live my life as a fantasy in which one day it will become reality.
I was Going from group to group trying to fulfill my needs
"I want this"
"I want them to be my friend"
"I don't want you to talk to that person"
"I thought you were supposed to be my friend"
I was going around in endless amount of circles.
I knew what I wanted but what I needed was surfacing
My eyes and ears opened into the real world
But it was too late, as I was trapped in a box
I was filled with anger and hurt knowing that I couldn't get out
So I decided to dig a hole which wasn't the best idea
Trapped and lonely
One day I was finally surrounded by 3 angels
They were willing to help me up
I wouldn't go with them because I was scared to fly
They started to encourage ME,
they uplifted ME
and made ME realize life is way more than rock bottom
As soon as I grabbed their hands angry and hurt rushed out my body
Warm, glowing positivity filled my body
Nothing could hurt me
As they flew me up, I realized I wasn't important but me was
And then I felt a sweet breeze brush over me
And the sun was blinding me
Soft arms wrapped around me
We were so high, we were flying with birds
