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HOPE Part 2

When words fail, music speaks.

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Extra info:

Hope: Has schizoaffective disorder, is 16 and is starting junior year of high school

Schizoaffective disorder: Schizoaffective disorder is a condition in which a person experiences a combination of schizophrenia symptoms - such as hallucinations or delusions - and mood disorder symptoms, such as mania or depression.

Alaina: Hope's older sister who is 18 and is a hairstylist.

Mom: Is very active, has a bunch of jobs to take care of her family, and has been feeling very nauseous ,more tired than usual, and has been dealing with back pains. 

If you have any questions on any of the other characters, places, etc., please PM me.

Hope you like it ;)

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Very recently my mom has been feeling very sick and her skin is turning very pale, so today my mom and I went to her doctor's appointment because my sister is working and are going to get the results soon.

I ran out of the car and went straight to my room. We just got back from my mom's testing, they were going to call us when they have the results. I turn on Million reasons by Lady Gaga, wondering just how bad this could be.

2 hours later I hear the phone ringing and then it stops. I sneak down the stairs, and listen in.

"What?" my mom says, sounding upset.

She puts the phone down, and sits at the kitchen table and starts balling. I quickly run to her. She cries into my new PINK sweatshirt, her tears soaking it and her makeup running down her face.

"I have cancer" she sobbed.

What? She seemed perfectly healthy a couple weeks ago. My mind starts up like a tornado, depression taking over my body.

"Maybe you should go lay down," my mom calmly stated.

I laid down and tried to go to sleep. I usually hyperventilate or go in to shock when I'm really stressed. I just couldn't help thinking, what if it's really bad?

The next day-

Today is the day we are going to find out how bad the cancer is and what type it is. We are waiting in the waiting room. A nurse calls for us, and she leads us to another very white room.

She sits down and looks up saying ", This is always hard to say but results show that you have stage 4 pancreatic cancer and it has taken up most of your pancreas, meaning you have less than a month to live, I'm so very sorry."

I freeze. The nurse is still talking, but I can't hear her. How am I able to live without her? She's my rock. She has helped me through my depression. She's one of the only reasons why I am still here . Who's going to take care of me? My life is officially over.

I start to hyperventilate, thoughts racing through my head . Then everything goes black.

When I wake up, I see bright lights that I swear are trying to blind me.

"You're up" My older sister Alaina whispered.

She looked like she had been crying. Then, the nurse came in.

"Glad your awake, look's like you had an anxiety attack from everything. Also, I'm not sure if you're sister told you yet, but your mom, she didn't make it, the cancer took over faster than expected , I'll leave you two alone now to talk, and your therapist will be here soon and you can leave tomorrow morning."

She left and my sister and I cried into each others arms.

"I'm going to take care of you," Alaina said calmly.

"But it won't be the same" I cried.

"We'll get through this, I also got a job promotion in Milwaukee and Joann(Hope's counselor) is going to move in with us in Milwaukee"

I sat their shocked.

I laid back and plugged in my headphones and listened to When I Look at You by Miley Cyrus. I realized that their might be some bad days, but everything will be okay in the end

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I just wanted to let everybody know that if you are going through cancer, have a friend or family member with cancer you can get through this:)

Life's a rollercoaster but in the end, you'll make it!

PM me if you need anybody to talk to.