The Ones Who Care

GOODNESS.

We live in a world where bad is ridiculed in our heads but never articulated to the ones who deserve to hear.We sure as hell would love to have our voices heard but we are always so scared of what the other person might think..why they would think it and how it will come across to them.

How do I know all this?
Well its simply because I have been one of those people always appreciating the shade even when I don't deserve it.

Do I want to change?
No..sometimes yes.
Other times I simply do not care.

Reason for this you ask?
Well I'll find out soon enough.

You and me both.

Pardon my manners..my name is Stars.

A shadow to some people and a ghost to the majority.I hope we have things in common too.

Good people do exist..my mother believed they did and I always believed what she said.
So I think she left my sister to take care of me because she was a good person.
She also forgot about her children and embraced the bottle because she was a nice person.
She never asked how we were because she was obviously a good person.

Not a saint but just a fucking good person.

But am not one to judge..am one to trust the process and accept the outcome.
I don't question and I don't judge..I should be called a good person.But let's not be rash here.

"Ann your friends are here..time to go"

Go.
Time to go.

They are not really my friends.Just people you happen to stumble upon and end up hanging out more than you should.
Already they are talking even as I enter the car.
"Always say hello"my mother would repeat this all the time.
I say hello..to appease my absent mother.

Then I look out the window and watch the trees as they move.
Then someone snaps two fingers in front of me..

"Hello??you know Stars I won't be driving you to school if you are going to be zoning out like this"
That's Zoe ..a friend of mine.

"What??sorry..I was..." I tried to come up with a response but as always she was a step ahead

"Deep in thought??" She asked amusement written all over her face."is it that boy again?"

This simple statement caused me to choke on my own spit but that would not stop her.
Yes Zoe.It is that boy again.He might possibly get me killed.

"What was the pretty boys name..a white boy name..." This was said while she scratched her chin like she just discovered she can't grow a beard.And then it hit her

"ACE!!! Am I right??" She asked and waited for no response.."of course I am"she muttered under her breath.

I decided to intervene"can we please not talk about this today??And to answer your first question no am not thinking about Ace...I just have a lot on my mind is all"

Liar.

"M'kay...I'll pretend your telling the truth for now...get out of my car...it's school time"

School.
Yaaay.
The lies.The pretense.
The fake perfection.
Another long day ahead Stars but your strong...you do this everyday.

I entered the school quickly scanning the area.

And then our eyes met.Like he had been waiting for me.And then he smiled.
Like he knew something that nobody else would ever get close to knowing.
Show off.

I made my way to where he was standing alone.
"Hello Stars" he started as soon as I was standing in front of him."You look beautiful as always."

I watched him carefully putting words into a sentence that would not provoke him into yapping about his new found discovery.

"Am glad you noticed Ace"
Smooth Stars.Now go ahead and explain what you want the little prick to do.
"Listen Ace..." I was rudely cut off.You are free to pick a guess of who did it.

"Stars.You don't have to come here to give me demands on what I should say and what I should keep my mouth shut about.I saw what I saw and I will decide what to do with the juicy piece of information.So you can go back to your perfect group of friends and slowly await your downfall "
And then he dared to smile sweetly to me.
The nerve of this boy.

I looked him square in the face and inched closer to him.
And closer until I could feel his breath on my forehead.Then I looked up slowly and watched him for a few seconds.
"Ace..all I really want to do is help you.I really really do.The piece of juicy information as you put it that you hold could most probably cost you the body part that will help you spread it.."
Then I pointed a finger at his chest and went ahead to give him my proposal.
"But that can be avoided kid.Just meet me after school and listen to me for a bit..simple as that and I can go back to not remembering your name.okay?"I finished and waited for a response.

He looked down and moved back and looked ahead.I turned and saw him watching Turner..the mathlete.
" Aww does Ace boy want to run to his little boyfriend"I teased clearly amused by this new discovery."Meet me after school and maybe you will get married and adopt puppies.Twin puppies actually."Then I snapped my fingers having realised something "You will name them Stars and Moon" Now it was my turn to smile sweetly.

This statement caught his attention.
"Deal?" I asked for the last time.

"I'll consider it" he said bitterly and walked past me.

"You know the person who is going to kill you.." He stopped in his tracks "Still does not know you are the person who saw us in the house.He has no idea you,Ace Kontry,are the brave kid who knows where all the missing people are buried." I moved forward to where his back was facing me and placed my cheek on his back.
"I do not like you..but I don't want you dead.When he finds out who you are,he will not consider a method of death.Meet me after school.Its no compromise Ace"

I turned round and headed to class.
His back still faced me.Even in class.
The way it should.