jacob sartorius imagines

letters to him part 2

previously...
jan 30th 2018
im starting to think you really hate me because you even blocked me on instagram. im sorry for being a waist of your time. ive grown in depression, and anxiety, and cutting. i really just want you to be here with me..but you clearly gave up on us and moved on..so this is it..goodbye
....from. y/n

y/n pov
i sit here and think to myself. i go on my fanpage for him which he doesn't know its me. its been a year, hes travelling and he has a girlfriend named millie bobby brown. it hurts. alot. i've lost a of weight cause i don't really eat anymore. jacob is supposed to come home today as a day off. which im happy and not at the same time. i get up and get dressed into sweatpants and jacobs hoodie he left at my house before. i walk to mcdonalds and order a quarter pounder with cheese and sit down at a table. i just stare at the food.
someone walks in. i turn my head and see its jacob and millie holding hands. i leave the food there. im not hungry. i sigh and walk towards the door and ofc i had to bump into him."im so sorry" i choked out. i ran home and into my room."y/n! jacob and millie are coming over with pat and rolf for dinner go get dressed" lmao whatever. i go get dressed in something simple.i took a nap for 4 hours jsjs dang that long holy shet. "they are here" my mom yells. i walk downstairs and see jacob and millie. my heart is broken. he doesn't care anymore. life has been so hard and not even as a friend he would send a letter back. my mom puts the food on the table and we all sit. jacob is in the middle then im on his right and millie is on his left. she kisses his cheek and starts eating "awe cutie i love you baby you mean alot to me" i hear jacob whisper while putting his arm around her waist "i-im not hungry. thank you though" i slide out of my seat and run up to my room. (if u are sensitive to self harming dont read untill it says "🦄" )
i run to my bathroom thats attached to my room. i grab my blad and start to cut. i watch as the blood drips down. i clean my arm up and hide the blade. (🦄) i walk out to my room an hear someone enter i look up and see its jacob. "long time no see" i shook my head "ya..."
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