For His Happiness

Soulmates

I stared, watching as he stood in awe of the woman before him while I sat in the far back corner. I should have been the one he was staring at. I should have been the one dressed in white, glowing with an iridescent aura. She did not know him the way I knew him. She only knew him superficially.

She did not love him the way I loved him. A love that was unconditional. A love the gave me butterfly's when he would look deep into my eyes. A love that caused sparks to generate as he barely brushed my hand.

A tear escaped as I replayed the first day we met in my mind. I had just lost my brother in a car accident. I was at the bridge where it happened. My heart crumbled inside of my chest. I fell to my knees as I sobbed uncontrollably into my hands. A car had pulled over and a warm arm was around my shoulder.

I tried to see who had noticed me, but my eyes were blurry from my tears. I remember his soothing voice asked, "Are you alright?"

I could not even answer him as a new wave of sobs burst out. For two hours he sat with me as I cried the crumbs of my heart out. He did not even speak another word as he waited. I had cried myself dry of tears when I finally looked up to the young man who sat beside me softly staring into my eyes.

That day I poured my heart out to him about my brother. I shared the highs and lows of our relationship, and instead of ever trying to say he was sorry or that he knew what I was going through, he just listened intently. He never even tried to make it about himself.

So to see that he was about to marry someone that didn't truly deserve his selfless love broke me even more than when my brother died, but I lost my opportunity to change that. I passed it up for his happiness because I wanted to be just as selfless as he was in love. I knew she was not true to him. She was not loyal in love, but to tell him would mean to break his heart and I just could not do that.

I pursued my lips as rushed out the back doors. I could not watch my best friend, the love of my life, my soulmate, the man who made me want to be a better person, marry a woman who did not deserve his love. No one would ever deserve his love.

I fell to the ground as a heavy weight began to crush my chest, causing it to become hard to breathe. My heart ached. It had felt like someone had ripped it right out of my chest.

"Are you alright?" His soothing words calmed my tears.

~Soulmates: unconditional, selfless, inspiring, patient, will pass any test.