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Chapter 4.

<Taylor's POV>

It's been two days since Ed and I last met at Starbucks, and he won't answer my calls or texts. He's probably too busy hanging out with his girlfriend. Knew I'm nothing close to what he would want in a girl. Im irresponsible, dated "too many" guys, and I am not even the slightest bit good looking. When will things change? I wish I could make him forget about the old me so I could focus on being a new and improved Taylor.

My phone rings. My heart excitedly jumps a bit thinking it might be Ed, but then I realize I don't want it to be him. If he wants to talk to me, he will be probably end up telling me something that will l. Lkstart an argument. I wince picking up the phone. It's not Ed. It's worse.

"Hello?"

"Hi Taylor, it's Ed's mother." What. Even.

"Oh hey, Mrs. Sheeran! How is everything?"

"Not so good...I actually called you to tell you some devastating news.."

"Oh no, what is it?"

"Um, Ed got in a car crash, and the doctors aren't sure if he'll make it."

"I'm so sorry...is there anything I can do for you?"

"He told me he wants to see you really soon incase...." She starts crying and a tear streams down my face."

"Ok, I'll be there this afternoon. What hospital and what room number?"

"Memorial Hospital, room 113." 13.

"Okay, thanks, and I'll see you soon. I'm so sorry."

"Bye sweetie."

I out he phone on and sit on the couch silently. Soon enough, the sobs leak out. I cry and cry until my mascara has turned my cheeks black, and Meredith is sitting on my lap sort of comforting me. I get up and shower. After that I put on a cat t-shirt and denim shorts. I should get going to meet Ed.

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"Ed!!!!!! I'm so sorry for all of...this!" Tears were running down my face. I just got in Ed's room, and he's covered in all kinds if bandages, and connected to tubes that connect to big tanks and machines. There's also a heart monitor in the corner of the small, cramped room. I feel so bad.

"I would hug you right now, but....I can't because um... I don't want to injure you um. sorry..." I say. I couldn't sound more dumb. Gosh. Ed laughs. It looks like it hurts to even just laugh. But I know he cares.

"It's fine. I'd kiss you."

Oh. My. Gosh.

Immediately, Ed covers his mouth and his eyes widen. "Um, I mean I'd hug you too." He nervously laughs, and looks away.

I say,"Ed, I feel so bad for everything that happened. How did you crash?"

He frowns and says,"It was the day I met you at Starbucks. I told you I had a girlfriend...but I don't. I really don't know what I was thinking when I said that, and I was so mad at myself. And on my way home, I just. I. I completely lost control over my body. The grief and guilt was overwhelming me. I really want to go on tour with you, but I'm going to die, Taylor." His eyes let out some tears.

Ed is about to die. And it's because of me.

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