Ziall-Forbidden Love

Chapter Ten

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Zayns Pov:

Kissing Niall was like magic. Our lips blending together, I couldn't deny the overwhelming feeling growing deep inside me. I wanted to pull him even closer, Hold him close to my chest and love him the way he deserves, So why did I find myself pulling away? Once I'd pulled away Niall looked at me with utter confusion, And disappointment.

"Why did you pull away, Don't you want this?" He asked. 

"Niall, of course I want this, I really do, But I can't help but feel as though, I'm taking advantage of you" I muttered. 

"Why do you feel that?" He questioned.

"After all that's happened to you-" 

"The rape" Niall finished the sentence before I could, I went to speak but no words would leave my lips. How could he talk about is so easily? How could he say the words without shuddering at the thought of it? "You can say the words you know Zayn, There words nothing more, As much as I want to change it I can't, There's no time machine to go back in time, There's no taking back what happened, I was raped Zayn, That's it, I can't change it, I'm damaged goods I faced that a long time ago" Niall spoke.

"Don't! Don't say that Niall" I said.

"It's the truth" Niall replied.

"No, No it's not, Niall he took your innocence away from you, He forced his filthy body on you, He-" Niall cut me off mid sentence.

"He may have done that but I let him! I didn't do anything to stop him! I could have fought him off! I could have made him stop, But I didn't! It was my fault! Nobody can ever love me Zayn, Not after this" Niall voice went from anger to a small whisper. 

"I can" I replied taking Niall's hand in mine.

"You pulled away Zi, You pulled away from me because it didn't feel right to you" 

"Niall, Nothing could feel more right, I'm not going to lie, What he done to you makes my skin crawl, The thought of him touching you in ways you never wanted, The thought of your fear and world crashing down around you as he took your innocence from you, Niall it makes my blood boil, I'm not going to lie about that, But it's not you Ni it never could be, It's him" I replied, Holding onto Niall's hands tighter. Tears began to fall from Niall's fragile eyes. 

"It never goes away Zayn, The mental pictures are still there, Everytime I close my eyes I-i-see it, I see him, His evil smirk, The look of pride in his eyes, The moans of pleasure leaving his mouth, While cries of pain left mine, The twisted disgusting gut wrenching words he whispered into my ear as he pushed his body against mine. Whispers of 'you like it don't you, You filthy whore', But I didn't like it Zayn, I wanted him to stop I begged him to stop but he wouldn't" Niall fell into my open arms, Crying the pain out into my chest. 

"I know the memories are there Niall, I know they always will be, But I'm never going to let that scumbag hurt you again, Not ever" I said rocking Niall backwards and forwards. 

"I admire you Zayn" Niall whispered into my neck, His hot breath sending shivers down my spine. 

"Me? Why?" I asked shocked.

"Your persistence, Your love, Your loyalty to me" Niall replied.

"Well I admire your strength, Through everything you've been through you've stood hard as a stone, Even if you couldn't rise above everything" I said. 

"These past few years, I've wanted nothing more then to give up. To crawl up into a ball in the corner of the room, And die. I lost the will to fight back, I became so sick of fighting a battle I was never going to win. The loneliness finally got to me, That was until you walked into my life, You made the loneliness all just disappear Zayn. Nothing can replace the touches you give me that don't make me shudder in fear, Your touch makes me lean closer. I gotta be where you are Zayn, I have to be next to you. I'm longing for the love I know you can give me" Niall replied.

"Well then Niall Horan let me love you, Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need, Good love and protection, Let me love you Niall" I said back smiling, Niall smirked at me.

"Quoting Mario let me love you, Bit deep ain't it?" Niall replied in a joking manner.

"Oh shup up" I said pushing him playfully before grabbing a hold of his shoulders pulling him into my chest again, Niall laughed a proper full hearted laugh that made my heart melt.

"The answers yes by the way, Yes I will let you love me" Niall replied smiling at me. 

I placed my finger under Niall's chin lifting his head up, I then gently kissed his soft pink lips. Nobody was ever going to hurt him again, If they wanted to they had to get through me. My father wouldn't like me having a relationship with his student but, I didn't care, I was going to love and protect Niall no matter what anyone thought, If Jacob or anybody for that matter wanted to hurt him they would have to get past me now.