brand new girl || sana au

life before

i've been studying way more than you have. it doesn't matter if you're insanely dedicated; truth is, i always had the time to study. all my life, i never took fine arts lessons, went to a school dance, and never had a boyfriend. i only have 2 real friends, but i never make time to hang out with them outside of school. i do have a phone like other girls, but i rarely use it. here's the last set of text messages i sent to one of my friends:

contact: tzuyu

s: just @ home doing reading, online maths, revision, and homework, so can't text for a while till i'm done. sorry! :(

t: ahh it's okay!! even though i don't have a lot of homework, i can still try to talk to you while you do yours :D

s: no. can't check messages. parental check-ins and monitoring. 

*sana has logged out* 

t: feels bad ;; well bye for now!!

today was january 30th. it gave me a perfect time to write a thought in my journal:

january 30

does it feel like i'm isolated from the rest of the world? it feels like it. thanks to my family, i never really had a chance to become a normal teenage girl. please mom and dad, just please let me go outside for once. please.

tomorrow is sunday, which means that i have to carry out additional revision for the big algebra test that's worth a huge chunk of points.

ways to pass time while revising

1) look outside

2) listen to music

3) write a fanfic

4) nothing.

shortly after i wrote this in my journal, my mom opened the door and went inside my room.

"what are you writing?"

"ways to pass time while studying."

"mhm. now stop writing and continue studying."

she walked out of the room and closed the door. i went back to studying.

during monday

after the algebra test, i went to my locker to put away my math supplies and traded them for my lunch bag. as i headed to the cafeteria, i saw a random note on the floor. it probably turned out to be from a boy, since the handwriting was messy. however, i deciphered the note in a short time:

don't know why, but i'm starting to have feelings for sana. but should i tell her? i mean, she ignores boys anyways.

i picked it up and put it on the nearest bulletin board. during lunch, i told my friends about it.

"do you know who wrote this?" i asked. i showed them a picture i took of the note.

both tzuyu and jeongyeon said that they were unsure, but jeongyeon took it a step further.

"maybe it might be jay. his handwriting's similar, but i'm not 100% confident about that. try asking him, if he's in one of your classes."

"what? i can't. he's gonna look away if i take a glimpse at him, especially since he recognizes me. besides, he's not in any of my classes."

"just try it. trust me."

i gave her a disgusted look. then, i walked away to head to science. all i could think of for the rest of today were jeongyeon's words. they soon formed into phrases that i could fully understand. so what if jay potentially liked me? would i confront him or just stay silent? maybe just stay silent.