I'm so annoyed. I can't blame others because it's my fault for neglecting my friends. I don't want to be upset over how they react since I'm responsible for this whole situation. But the way you chose to handle it is childishly. Maybe I'm overreacting but it seems to coincidental to me. Even if I confront you , you will just deny it and make up an excuse. I shouldn't have made plans in the first place. I always cancel which irritates them. But honestly why do I bother. Hanging with them seems like a chore to me. I never really enjoy my time. I think we're saving this nonexistent friendship by trying to catch up on all the info we never dare to reveal to each other. We're so distant now and I really have no business with having to tell you my personal stuff.
