More than words can say. ( Collection of My Poems)

More than words can say (A Collection of my Poems)

The pain could never really wash away,

I decided to move on, I know, but actually couldnt find a way.

When I closed my eyes your eyes were still the best & so was your smile,

Maybe they were the soul reasons to stop me for all the while.

But not this time though when I wasnt blind anymore in anyway,

Its just that I cant show it, but I miss you more than words can say.

I swear I wont contact you now, no text & no call,

ButI think,  I.d rather ditch myself to rather get hurt than feel nothing at all.

I know it all has no meaning now, I just gotta let it go,

I have, trust me, but the truth hurts so bad that i find my heart bleeds- No.

At times its like I.m close to So many people & still so away,

Its like, I.m not supposed to admit, but I miss you more than words can say.

I hope youstay happy, but I wish You cry for me once too,

Like everyday, every moment I did for you.

I dont want anything back, you dont need to oblige me again,

Its just these stupid memories & that stupid little heart that pray in vain.

I wish I.d never known you, never been so madly yours that way,

Cause I just, Just wanna stop missing you, even at times, more than words can say.

I know you wont, Still I wish you never read this bullcrap,

I want you to just think I.m all great without you, like the present snap.

I know its still quite stupid for me to feel this way,

Cause You just aint aint that kind to miss more than those words can say.

I was once not afraid of dieing, but loosing you,

But now I wish how better would it have been, if it wasnt True.

Sometimes I wanna run back in time & the others I wish to skip sometime more,

Sometimes I think I was stupid in being loyal toYou, I.d rather been a happy whore.

I dont know why I wanted you & so bad, after all that, even when I found you going the other way,

I guess its the most foolish thing, fuck you,I just dont get it,

Why do I still miss you & miss you so more than words can say..