Infinitely [l.t]

03

➵Louis

I needed her back, the constant nagging in the back of my mind was now full on screaming. I wanted my girlfriend back. I was a jumble of excuses and 'im sorrys' when she left, but now that theres a chance i could have her back, I will stop at nothing.

My hands run through my hair and deep signs tumble out of my mouth, I ruined her just like I ruined our relationship.

There's no way in hell she could want me back, but that wasn't going to stop me. I don't care how stupid I look or how many times I get made fun of, I love her. Without her, I'm like a book without pages.

She was my everything, and I just needed her back. But how do I do it? How do I get her to forgive me, let alone love me again?

I needed help, and fast. And I know just who can help me.

➵Vanessa

"You know how stubborn he is Nessa, he won't stop" Valerie says as we walk into school

"I realise Val" I mumble "I don't know what I want to do"

"Do you still love him?"

Fuck. I knew she would ask that.

The truth is yeah I do still love him, I miss lots of things about our relationship but I don't miss the bad parts. And even though we looked like the perfect couple, we weren't. We had our problems, like every normal couple does. He just liked to make me regret them, by kissing other girls- apparently.

And yes, I'm still not over that. The way he grabbed he like he should of grabbed me, the way he smiled against her lips and laughed in my face. He acted like an arse, and he deserves to know that.

"Nessa?" Val sing songs, waving her hand infront of my face

"Sorry" I mumbled

"Do you?" She says nudging me lightly

"Yeah" I breathed "yeah I do"

She squealed "you have to let me be maid of honour at your wedding!"

"Of course Val" a voice chuckles from behind us, I know it's him I can almost hear the smug grin on his face

"How much did you hear" I ask, if he knows that I still feel the same then he won't make an effort an that's what I want from him

"Just that your excitable little friend here wants to be maid of honour at your wedding" he says smirking "and seeing as your going to marry me"

"Who said I'm marrying you?!" I exclaim

"You did, when we were 8" he says tugging at one of my curls playfully "remember, we promised that we would marry each other"

"We were really small then Lou" I chuckle "I miss them"

At this point Valerie had backed away and scampered into a doorway where she thought she was out of sight

"We're still the same people angel" he says as he wraps an arm around my waist and leads me towards the auditorium "just grown up a bit that's all"

"Ha you, grown up?" I chuckle "sounds impossible"

"You underestimate me" he winks

"Where are you taking me?" I giggle as he urges me towards the back row of seats

"Just watch this for me" he says taking a seat next to me

"Lou what have you-"

I was cut off by the projector started to roll, my attentions turn from the boy next to me, to the screen currently playing short movie clips of me and Louis.

"No freaking way" I mumble under my breath

I forgot these even existed, clips from when we were 7 in my back garden playing with toy guns, from when we were 11 on our first day of secondary school. I was wearing grey leggings and a oversized jumper, my fashion sense hasn't got any better. but then again neither had Louis's he stood there with his hair all gelled in a black teeshirt and grey jeans. I giggle as my 11 year old self pokes his cheek and says 'you look like a depressed hedgehog' earning a glare from little louis.

It soon changes to another clip of us when we were 15 where we were making stupid films, I watched as from behind the camera I stuck my pinky out and said 'promise me that you'll be my first lou' he smiles and nods linking my pinky with his.

"Kept that promise" Louis mumbles wrapping his arm around my shoulder

"You sure did Tomlinson" I laugh leaning against him

"Shh this is the best bit" he warns squeezing my shoulder lightly, I nod and turn back to the screen again.

A new clip plays from when we were dating, we were in that honeymoon faze.

'Vanessa is studying and is looking rather serious' Louis says holding the camera up to a very stressed looking me, surrounded in books and papers obviously studying for something.

'just because if I fail I don't have a plan b babe' I chuckle pushing my glasses up back up my nose

'Whats my plan b baby?' he chuckles putting the camera down onto the table so that you could see both of us, I looked tired and horrid while Louis still managed to look perfect, his tanned figure and big blue eyes making me look like a gobling with my pale face and hazel eyes hidden by my chunky glasses.

"I look horrid" I mutter earning a chuckle from Louis

"You looked perfect to me" he says kissing my head lightly, earning a smile from me

'You have an amazing voice and I can almost guaranty you will be crazy rich one day' my voice sounds tired and drained compared to Louis bright and cheery tone

'Ill make you my wife then' he says pulling me into his lap and away from the mass of books I was in.

'You really want to have me tagging along while your being a superstar?'

'I want you with me everyday for the rest of my life' he gazes into my eyes as I press my forehead against his with a smile across my face

'I love you boobear' I giggle

'I love you angel' he replys kissing me, I wrap my arms around his neck and pull his body closer to mine. The screen goes black and I'm broken from the imaginary world where we were still like that.

I feel the tears start to run down my cheeks and onto Louis's jumper.

"Please don't cry" Louis mumbles rubbing my back "I didn't mean to upset you, I just wanted to show you that I miss it"

"You miss that?" I ask, mentally scolding myself for sounding so hopeful

"Vanessa Riley White, I miss that every second of everyday" he says turning to face me in his seat "when I edited that last night, I cried for about 3 hours. that is the only thing i have left of what I had with you, of what I ruined with you"

"You haven't ruined it" I mumble

"I'm trying so hard to make it right" he says taking my hand in his "I need you back Nessa I'm not the same without you"

"I don't want a sob story Lou, I've got enough of my own" I say and he nods "but if your serious about this then I need you to prove it to me"

"I'll do anything"

"I still love you" I say "I just need to know that you do to, and this isn't some trick where you will run off with another girl"

"Id never do that to you again"

"That's what you said to me last time, you promised that you'd never do that and you did"

"I'll stop at nothing, i hope you realise that" He looked vunrable, his cheeks flushed and his eyes puffy. He looked broken and it was because of me, my mind was a wirlwind of thoughts and apologies. 

"Im sorry" I mumble looking at my lap

"So am i" He said tilting my chin to look at me, his eyes searching for forgiveness 

"So give me time" 

He nodded and smiled, kissing my forehead and giving my hand a light squeeze.

"See you soon Angel"