A Penny For Your Thoughts

We Live What We Learn

Everyone has an opinion, that is what makes us each so unique ! My opinion matters as does yours. It is my opinion ,that we all learn what we live, since..you guessed it the day we were born!

Since the day we were born we had to learn. We had to learn the voice of another human being..whether it be a Mother, Father, Guardian. 

We heard sounds, while we were in the womb, heartbeats, rumbles, waves. But once we took our first breath we heard audible sounds,  later recognizing and understanding  voices. Many of us ,however were born blind or deaf...sad but true. It is a fact of human life, we can not take everything for granted. To those born blind or deaf..you learned by using your senses, some of the most intelligent people are born with handicaps, learning to adjust and create their own realms of the world around them. Not floating through life, but enduring each moment with coping skills to make it or break it.

We felt emotions, sadness, happiness, pain. Tears of joy and tears of fear, rejection and acception. And after the emotions we begin to learn.

Picture this is you will..we are born into the world like a blank canvas. All our emotions the backdrop, but what we learn to live is in strokes of the brush, putting life to the work of your art. Putting imagery to what you have learned along the way.

Do we as a child , learn what we live ? Yes ! As a teeneager, learn what we live ? Yes! As an adult, learn what we live ? Yes! We continually learn what we live. Conditioned by the world around us each and every day. I was conditioned by a strict family, a controlling husband, by the media,by the workforce, but now can be what I choose to be. We all learn what we live, hopefully we learn we can also change the course of our lives too. Hopefully we learn from "what" we live!

I want to share with you a little tad bit ABOUT ME at this point :

I personally learned from watching others as I grew up, never speaking much, always sitting back on the sidelines. I was a quiet child, a shy child. I learned about life by being an observer, being controlled, having set boundaries from the day I was born, then married young. 

Perhaps you did too. Perhaps you were always a thinker, an observer, watching and learning.

 I was brought up in a strict family with law and orders. I was brought up to believe in God. 

I was controlled !

I am about to share with you, some intimate details of my life. My life's direction , a course taken by what I learned as I grew, to take orders from others, not speak my mind,listen to your elders, do what's right, as told by others. Get the drift, I was controlled all my life...and the control continues into my marriage.

At the age of 18, I married, we were not in love, even though I thought it was love...it was not. He was the first young man I dated, my father did not approve. He took my virginity at age 17, at the age of 18, it was then  I  conceived a child. My step mother wanted me to abort it, or give it away..this new beautiful creation of life. I would have nothing of destroying something I felt God gave me. 

You see, I did had obstacles to climb back then. We all do and did at one time or another. Decisions to make. For , as it was,I had applied , was interviewed and won a scholarship to Commercial Art School. When I got earth shattering  news of being with child, currently at that time I was attending college in Worcester, MA. Well.... one dream was shattered.We ( you and I ) have all had those dreams one time or another! Some broken, some accomplished and yes some still to come.

 At the age of 18, I was married. No sparks of love. He did not propose, there was no love from him, no wedding...it was just an act of doing what was right. That generation did what the previous generations did...marry out of necessity, not love.  My dreams vanished of whom I always wanted to be. So I adjusted to who I had become.

My dreams at the young age of 10, were to be an artist/writer. I wanted so badly ,to work in Boston or New York. To become a commercial artist, to work with well known companies and make their ads, as I had a knack for being a quick thinker!  

But  life threw me a line  as I was drowning, to reel me into something I never dreamed of  being. A mother, that it would happen so young, I grabbed it and pulled myself up into a new realm of direction. A Mother, wife,lover. It was good while it lasted, I was good at playing the parts,at least the part of being a Mother was no play, it was of the heart...of deep earth shattering love..the love I found was indeed like no other...to coin a phrase. Love is another thing learned, different levels..I will go into this in another segment.

So expressing this past of my life, a small portion of what made me at that age..of what I learned,  right now you can also remember what made you, what you have learned...you may want to keep a journal for all your thoughts as you read this book..they will be insightful later when you are through reading it. WHAT MADE YOU WHO YOU ARE?

The next question to ask yourself is this...what have you learned in life. It can be one phrase..or you can write a paragraph or two of your most important life lessons. 

What life lessons , made you who you are today ? This will be AN EYE OPENER! REVEALING WHO YOU ARE.

This will help you establish whether or not you have come to a crossroad of whom you are based on what you have learned.