You know there are some days where you feel like you are trying your hardest but it is still not enough for people cause they do not understand how hard it can be, how it feels so hard to just get up in the morning but you try so hard regardless yet they do not understand and you feel like even your hardest can never be good enough and it breaks you,it shatters you mentally,emotionally and even physically. You always wanna get better but you do not know how cause you feel tied,you feel suffocated. You feel angry with the world and you wanna quit,you do not wanna exist anymore. Sometimes you have no one to talk to and it fucks you up cause you realize you are alone and there is no one to understand your pain,everyone else would just dismiss your feelings or say other people have it worse. It makes you feel worthless and you feel frustrated that you cannot even be sad in peace without having others giving you shit for it .It's okay, depression and sadness are not easy. It's okay if you do not understand how you are feeling right now,it's okay if you do not know how to process your emotions or know how to deal with them, emotions can be hard and complicated to comprehend.It might feel like it is a dead end for you right now but it is not, you have survived so much until now, you have been surviving every terrible situation life has thrown your way - certain things might take some time to get better for you, but your life as a whole most definitely will; you have or will find people who love and adore you so much and think that you're amazing, but most importantly you will fall in love with yourself and realise just how amazing you are. You're not your grades,you're not what others think of you,you are not your bad thoughts. You are worth it. Forgive yourself for everything you think you've done wrong and please if you ever feel like getting help,don't ever hesitate. reaching out and wanting to heal is perfectly fine. If you're struggling,please voice out your pain. You're not alone okay?I'm really glad you're here and I'm proud of you for not quitting on yourself,I'm proud of you for continuing finding your place in this world.I will never give up on you so please don't give up on yourself. I love you and here's to better days for you.
