Let it Go (Sequel to My Bestfriend's Dad)

Chapter 5 *Enough*

Chapter 5 *Enough*

When it was time to go I was caught off guard by Margaret calling my name. Had I done something wrong? I turn around noticing Margaret walking towards me. There was something going on here. “Yes,” I ask stepping towards her.

“You should keep him,” With that she walks away leaving me there awestruck. She was something else. Very opportunist. I stay quiet not knowing what to say. I walk to the car followed by Dereck.  Thank God he didn’t hear that. I hope he didn’t.  I grab sleepy max and buckle him up. I go to the driver’s seat and start my car. Dereck leans towards the window making me roll the window down “Get home safely,” He says leaving me there. Why do everyone say something and not let me respond? Perhaps it’s a habit? I take a deep breath before driving away leaving all the people in the crowded restaurant.  My shift was now over.

Once I got home I put Max in his bed. Ugh! These sleepless nights. They are such a waste I mean why do I bother? I don’t even sleep anymore just thinking about life. Can’t I just go somewhere? I had to leave. I needed some free time.  But, I wasn’t going to leave Max alone either.  I didn’t want to call his babysitter either it was super late to do that. There was just one thing left to do. As embarrassing as it sounds I had to call Dereck I needed his assistance. Reaching for the house phone by the couch I dial his number. Yes, he gave it to me. Well, not me. He wrote in a piece of paper and put it in the refrigerator. How nice. Not.

“Hello?” I ask feeling timid. What if he was busy? What if I bothered something important? I was starting to feel shaky.

“Yeah? Paige?” He asks his voice hard and firm.

I think of what I am going to say. “Dereck can you take care of Ma-. Oh you know what never mind,” I say about to hang up the call when he says, “Paige tell me.”

“Listen could you come over and take care of Max? I need to go and do some stuff.” I pause “If you don’t mind.”

He stays quiet “What kind of stuff? It’s nearly nine.” So much for ‘call me if you need something.’

“I know it’s late. But, will you or not?” I wait for an answer.

“I’ll be right over,” He then, hangs up.

I put the phone back and quickly hop into the living room shower. Where could I possibly go? It’s a week day. I wanted to head down to the beach. But, I was just in the beach. No I wasn’t I was working.  I needed some time to think. I want to be alone. A little time for me wouldn’t hurt. Damn it. I walk out of the shower with just a towel wrapped around my body. I heard someone knocking on the door so, I walk to it opening it. Did I just open the door with a towel? And, with just my luck it was Dereck who I was standing in front of. Creepy much? Very. He scanned my body making me nervous “I’ll be right back,” I say grabbing my towel firmly in my hand walking away.  I walk into my room changing into a pair of black leggings, with a white long sleeve, and some flats. I fix my make-up applying red lips stick and coaming my hair. I figured it wouldn’t get messy or anything so I put it to the side. Besides it gets dry super easy. I walk out eyeing Dereck before leaving “it won’t be long. I promise,” I walk out grabbing my keys.  I enter the car turning it on, before, I could drive away I connected my phone to the stereo playing My Immortal by Evanescence. My hour drive was the least unexpected. Got to the beach  around 10:30. It was still crowded okay not so crowded as the weekends but, still. I sat a few inches away from the water so it wouldn’t come near me. It would not be my luck at all.  Bringing my knees close to my stomach I think. I wanted to be happy have fun. All I’ve done this time is take care of Max. I just love him but, at the same time I feel so integrated in him that I’m losing myself.  I don’t know why I haven’t talked to Dereck. I have so many questions to ask him. I mean it was my fault I left. I didn’t have to but, I did. I just hold the madness in me because I know he didn’t bother looking for us. He didn’t have too but, come one I know I would off ran away from him as many times as I had to.

But, now I wouldn’t. It would be devastating to Max. In no way in hell do I want to lose Max. Neither have I bothered myself to look for someone. Why in hell would I want to? I know that Dereck still belongs to me but, I don’t want to take the chance. I’m scared. What if I end up screwed? What if I end up with another child? No, No, No I already have enough with one.  Laughing at my thoughts I look at the ocean. Even though I was looking towards the ocean I could feel myself getting emotional.  What ever happened to Matt? I haven’t contacted since I left. I do miss my pal. I know I wasn’t his pal but, he was mine. Did he get married? Does he have any kids? I needed to ask Dereck since he was Matt’s boss after all.

I couldn’t help but, think of my parents and Eleanor. I’ve thinking about her lately. Perhaps because Dereck showed up in the picture? If I had my parents to comfort me it wouldn’t be as bad. But, they aren’t here. What kind of advice would my mom give me if she was here? I know what she would say ‘Love can get past everything,’ Can it really? “Mom you really need to pay me a visit in my dreams,” I say looking up at the sky. The first tear escaped my eyes. I knew many would escape tonight. My mom would be proud of me for having Max even through the bad time I was it. If only she was here she would play with him. She would have taught him how to talk.  Damn it, mom I fucking miss you. Why can’t I have you here with me now! I need you.

Doing the weirdest thing I thought I would ever do I start taking off my cloth. Only leaving myself in my bra and underwear. I pile up my shirt, leggings, and my flats into a ball before running inside the water. Hell the water was freezing. It felt good but, a cold good. I started shivering at the instant.

“Hey, is this yours!” A male voice says from behind. I turn around watching a man grab my cloth in his hands looking over at me. Damn it, I can’t have an peace.  He observed my face. I looked over at him. He was very handsome. Perhaps a little too handsome? He has brown hair and a very build body. Too bad I can’t see his eyes.  “Yeah!” I yell. I think he is going to leave but, he does the opposite he sits down. Is this luck or what? “Could you leave? I need to change!” I kind of yell softer then, before. Did he not hear me? I told him to leave! But, he’s just there like a moron watching me. Was I not going to be able to get out? He just turns around. I do nothing. “Times running out,” He says loudly enough for me to hear. I swim out grabbing my cloth. I change over my wet body. Has anyone ever done that? Because it sure in hell is hard to change in a wet body.  “Idiot,” I say when I finish changing. “It’s my pleasure to meet you,” He says standing up ready to greet me.

“Well I’m not.” I say not extending my hand to greet. “What the hell is your problem? Can’t someone have some have peace and quiet? I mean I was at my moment and you as an idiot ruin the moment.” Oops, I sounded like a bitch. Let’s be realistic I am. I look over at his eyes. Deep brown eyes with a perfect jaw line. Damn he’s too hot. Too bad I have to leave.

“Sorry I was jus-“

“Save it. I’m not interested,” I cut him off walking away. Who the hell does he think he is?

I promised I wouldn’t take long and everything but, I was practically driving home around midnight.  I went to the rides and bought myself cotton candy and walked around. When I got to my car I played the same song just as when I was coming.  My cloth was no longer sticking into my body it was dry. But, when I got home I found Dereck sleeping in my bed. Why couldn’t he just stay in the couch? I would have to stay in the couch. I grabbed a pillow from my bed and a spear of blankets that I had.

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