Desire

Chapter.1

Jungwoo's POV
I wasn't the normal teenage boy, you think of. I only figured this out yesterday as I began feeling weird. I have someone growing inside of me and I'm a guy! It all started a few days ago when my 'boyfriend' and I did it, obviously we didn't use protection and bam this happened.

I took a step at a minute, this is not what I want for my future, how the hell am I supposed to go to school like this. I mean not that I'm actually planning to go now, if he doesn't take me in, then I'm done.

You see, I'm already not allowed to step foot in my parents house. So this is my only choice. As I began getting closer to his house, I felt my heart race even faster than ever. As soon as I realize I had already step foot in his yard. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

A lady with dark hair and nice skin opened up and greeted me with a nice smile, luck was on my side.

"Hey Jackson come down, your friend Jungwoo is here," she shouted in direction to the stairs

I heard footsteps coming down and I stood up from the couch.

"I'll leave you two alone and I'll bring some snacks" his mother said, walking to the kitchen

"Jungwoo, why didn't you call me," Jackson reached up to me and hugged me

"This is important, can we go up to your room," I said sternly

We headed up to his room, which I still recognized from coming up her a bunch of times.

"Look, I don't know how to say this, and I'm really hoping something positive can come from this but..."
I mumbled holding his hand

"Jungwoo relax, just tell me" he said realizing that I was shaking a little.

"I'm-I'm pregnant Jackson," I said as clearly as possible

Silence took over for a few minutes.

He let go of my hand and placed it on his thigh.

"Are you sure?" He asked

I nodded lightly and he understood.

"Look as much as I love you, we're only 17 and I'm not ready,nor might my parents be, we're in difficult times now,and this won't help," he said

Tears filled my eyes, and my chest felt knotted.

"I understand, I came here thinking you loved me, you would help me take care of this baby, and raise it, and no you come here telling me no, does it look like I have somewhere to go!" I screamed, my eyes burning

"Jungwoo, I do love you," he said grabbing on to me

"Well then why would you leave me like this," I screamed pulling away and falling onto my knees

"I just can't,I'm so sorry" he said crying himself  and kneeling next to me grabbing

I used all my Force to let go and stand up.

"No stop! I can't, you know what, I'll just leave, I can't have this right now, watch I'll raise this baby on my own, without your stupid help!" I hollered and ran down the stairs

I made sure to apologize to his mom, who looked worried.

I ran and ran and ran.
My eyes burned and my legs ached.
I asked a 'close' friend to stay at his place until I find a job.

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4 weeks later
I just moved to this small room in an apartment I share.
It's not big neither fancy nor nothing but it's the most I could afford after working 4 weeks at a fast food shop.

It's not easy, the symptoms affect me a lot and it's not helping me at all.

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Time Skip... 3 years later

I walked around the supermarket, with Jeno holding my hand.
I pushed the cart and looked around the aisles.
I stopped at the cereal and cookies section and started reading the nutrition facts and all.
These past 3 years it's been hard to forget Jackson, especially since Jeno keeps asking I have no answer.
I got a job as a photographer, which to my luck pays more that what I need,
The year I left my house was a disaster, constant pains, working over shift just so I can feed myself and keep my baby alive, I was in huge poverty, but luckily I found a job that helped me much.
Now that Jeno is older it's getting easier and easier, he's such a great child even if at times he reminds me of his father.