Patience.

one.

Lily Hayes.

Age 17.

Patient Number: 900352749

Blood Type: O+

Cancer Type: Neuroblastoma.

Notes: Large tumors found in chest cavity and pressing on spinal chord, causing small difficulty in walking or standing. Cancer cells are spreading to the femur bones in both the right and left leg. An unsuccessful stem cell transplant was pursued with little to no improvement. The patient is currently undergoing a series of chemotherapy treatments.

Terminal.

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I think that's what bothers me most about this, that these doctors can just tell me when my life is going to end. That I don't get any say. 

For thirteen months I have been told what is going to happen. I have been told what I am going to eat, what pills I am going to take, what hospitals I am going to, and most importantly, I have been told that I am going to die. 

I walk down the streets. Alone. I think that everyone is afraid of catching what I have.

Not cancer.

Sadness.

I see people everywhere. Crossing the street, eating at a cafe, riding in cars. I see a group of girls, all smiling and laughing, whispering about something the rest of the world is oblivious to.

And suddenly, I wish I were anyone else but myself. 

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