It takes hold of me when I least expect it, I'm finally happy, but once I feel life again, it hits me. Suffocating, how can I survive this? Everyday I seem to be happy it hits me with a harder force. why cant I just be happy. I am fulfilling my requirements of pressure, is there anything I left out? who am I still failing? My boyfriend? My friends? Those who know me, help me, stick by me, but never abandon me. Am I reaching my down fall? Rock-bottom? All things bright now seem dull, in worthy of my presence, how do I continue living like this?
