Love Hatred & War

〰〰〰CHAPTER 5〰〰〰

➖➖➖FLASHBACK➖➖➖

"Why are you doing this. You do this every fucking time Ashton Davis." "Look I'm tired of this shit, Jessica. We go through this every day and I just can't do this anymore. I quit."

"I have tried for years and years to make this relationship works and look. It doesn't work. I could give a fuck about you. The only thing that matters is Briana. Our Twelve year-old Daughter. Look at her. She is not happy, when she should be. I...I... Im leaving Jessica. I can't do this anymore."

"Briana, Daddy loves you. I can't do this with Mommy anymore. So I'm going to leave. Just remeber thesef words. Love is Hatred, Hatred is War, and when all three are combined, great danger starts. Remeber.....Love Hatred And War. Goodbye, Daddy loves you don't forget it." "Bye, Daddy." I said in tears.

Mom, why do you have to make everyone leave us. I haven't had a bestfriend in five years. You want to know why? Because we move from house to house, expecting something to change. But your wish finally came true. Dad, left; Was that what you wanted. Well you got it. You drive me crazy and I can't do it anymore."Briana, wait!" No! Im done waiting. I'm going to my room. (huh, Fuck you!!)

Dear Diary,

She does this every fucking time. The only friend that i've had is Winter Johnson. She was a person that has been there since day one. She was a weird girl. She was crazy, in a good way.

Winter was funny. She was a girl who didnt care about other peoples feeling. It was just her against the world until she met me. We went to school together, Gateway Charter School, In Los Angeles, California. She brung so much joy and cheer to the table until one day. Her father died. He died because of reasons unknown. They didnt tell her why he died to protect her. I don't know why.

I don't think it really affected her because she was a foster. She knew who her Mother was but, not her father. Her Mother said she couldn't see her because she was protecting her.

After her dad died I never talked to her again. She was always a loner, but she was being extra lonerish. She talked to me once after her Father died. She said "You don't talk to me anymore but its okay, life goes on."

She never talked to me or even looked at me from that day forward. I wondered did she have something against me. But I thought she couldn't have no reason. She was truly weird because her name was Winter, but her favorite season was summer.

Sincerly, Briana

I closed my Diary, put the lock on it and hid it in my drawer. I just sat in the bed looking up at the sky in disgrace. I wondered how my life woukd turn out. Thinking about people that I would meet, and they would leave; Just like Winter.

Life is a climb. It is hard out here for a "PIMP". I chuckled a little. I just have to keep faith and remeber. "There's always gonna to be another moutain, I'm always gonna wanna make it move. There is always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes your gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side. Its the climb."

Well, Life gets hard, but you have to keep pushing through. Don't ever give up. Life gets hard but don't fall. I've made it through billions of time with the help of a couple, pills and potions.

"Bri Im sorry. I've lost many people but I wont lose you. You are something special to me." (Blah, Blah, Blah. Bitch shut the fuck up. Huh.) "Bri, I have lost someone special to me, and I just can't keep going. We are staying here in California. No more moving. It's just you and me against the world. Remeber. I love you briana Anne Davis (Why she just kiss me on my lips, do we go out or something now, is she gay or lesbian; Or either she is a pedophile or a Molester, bitch choose one.Plus, this bitch know her breath stank. Now my lips stank. I need some toothpaste or some shit. Her breath stank, DAMN. Bitch get away from me. Damn, aint nobody love you, you ran everyone away.) I love you too, Mom. Kisses. (Glad that hoe gone,Phew.)