*****my diary 3 years ago****
my name is Alexandra.
im 13 today is my birthday!
its December 2nd, 2011
im having my birthday by myself of course! but its ok, I love being alone. most people would had gone insane being alone 24/7, but for me it gives me time to think. breath. hope.
hope that one day I can leave this place and be free.
im human, well I think iam. I always wanted to be more than that. you know? I wanted to be powerful. you ask why? if I was powerful then nobody could stop me. if I had an idea or a goal... nobody would tell me im crazy. or tell me that im not good enough.
every. single. day.
people tell me im not worth it. or im pathetic. selfish. strange. stupid. ugly. no matter what I do, I will never fit in. so after a while I learned to give it up! give it all up. and
let. it. go.
I stopped trying to fit in.
I stopped trying to act.
I stopped trying to hide.
I started expressing myself.
I started living again.
I started to be happy.
I started to laugh.
I had h.o.p.e.
my name is Alexandra and this is my story.
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a/n: I update every once in a while
