Panic ~ Loki X Reader ~ One Shot

Okay so, this is the first fanfic that I have ever written so... Yeah.

~ONE SHOT~

I woke to find him gone. I began to panic. I leapt out of bed and frantically looked around my room and found no sign of him. I collapsed onto my bed and, thinking the worst, began to cry.
Moments later, I heard hurried footsteps and my door swing open.
"(y/n)?!" He called my name and I looked up only to see his deep green eyes full of worry.
"I-I thought you had l-left me." I stuttered as I sobbed uncontrollably.
"You'll never lose me my dearest (y/n)," Loki said as he clutched you to his chest, "never."

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I sat and watched Star Trek as I sipped my coffee. My panic attacks were being triggered easier than they had in years and this thought alone was enough to make me fret. Loki walked in, his hair wet from his shower and a towel wrapped around his waist, and immediately saw me digging my nails into my palm. Loki shifted his body so that he was facing me and took my hands in his.

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We sat there for what seemed like hours before I unclenched my fists. I sighed deeply before Loki gently held my face in his hands and looked into my (e/c) eyes. I couldn't hold back anymore. I threw myself onto him, wrapping my arms around his neck as tears rolled down my cheeks and began to soak the collar of his shirt. All Loki did was soothingly stroke my hair and whisper sweetly into my ear, "I love you."

-

I woke up on my couch unsure of what had happened or why I was there. I reached to my forehead and felt a cold hand before turning to face Loki in his jötun form.
"You developed a fever after what happened this morning. I'm sorry if I have startled you my love."
He looked so beautiful this way. I reached up to gently caress his blue-tinted cheek before finally speaking.
"You didn't scare me Loki," I said as his expression softened, "I love you. Ice-giant and all."
He smiled and slowly moved his lips closer to mine. Loki enveloped me in his kiss, so perfect and true that it melted me to the core. There was nothing else in that moment, just he and I. He broke the kiss and leaned back into the couch still holding me in his embrace. I felt relaxed for the first time in days and so, drifted off to sleep.

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It was later that night when I woke to hear Loki quietly singing a foreign song I assumed to be Asgardian. He began to speak as if I were not yet awake, "I love you (y/n). I know it's hard darling but we can do this. We can make it work. This doesn't define who you are. I know the real you. The relaxed you that can still experience anxiety and I know that she is who I fell in love with. I fell in love with you and your illness. And I will stand by you. I love you."
And with that I opened my eyes and beamed, knowing for once that everything was going to be okay. For it doesn't matter if a man cannot love me, anxiety and all, because a god does.