To build a home for you.

1. Saving my ass tonight was a good start.

"Are you going to send me back to hell?" Theo asked, keeping his heartbeat steadied.

He really didn't want Liam to know how scared he was. Because Theo liked people thinking that he was fearless and that he had total control. And it used to be like this. But being in hell changed everything. His sister ripping his heart out over and over again made something inside of him broke. He started to feel guilt, in the pit of his stomach, making it hard to breath. He started to understand what he did to his sister.

His sister.

He wished he could go back to the time and fix everything but he knew he could not. So he let all these nauseating feelings invading him, to the point where he didn't even try to hide from Tara anymore. He simply let her took what belonged to her. And Theo really thought that being trapped forever in the worst scenario he could imagine was his punishment for all the shit he had done.

But then he was back again. He had seen the red of the blood for months. But the first thing he saw when he came back was blue. His eyes were so blue that Theo thought he could get lost in them. And so he started to feel new things. He felt sorry for everything he had done to Liam. He felt sorry for betraying him, for manipulating him, for killing his alpha, for hurting him. And yet again, he found himself wishing he could erase everything he had done. He wished he could have a second chance to make things good. He felt thankfulness towards the Beta, who saved him from his hell. And a bunch of feelings he didn't understand completely yet.

That's how he found him risking his life with the Ghost Riders in order to keep Liam safe. He didn't understand why, but he felt this sudden need to protect him, to make sure he was safe.
Maybe because when he looked into his eyes when he brought him back, he felt safe. For the first time in months, he felt safe.
So Theo dragged Liam into the elevator and fought the Ghost Riders alone, trying to ignore the warm feeling in his stomach when he heard Liam screaming "no" against the closed elevator doors. He had been the bait to save Liam. He barely made it out alive, but seeing that stupid blue eyed beta jumping on a horse which he didn't even know how to ride, made him understand that he did the right think. That if he had died trying to save him, it would have been okay.

But neither of them died. They actually were all alive. Theo was alive, and was free. But he knew they only brought him back because they needed him, and he couldn't blame them. The worst part was that it was all his fault. So he thought that he hadn't even got the right to feel scared of being put into hell again.

"You made me broke the sword, remember?" Liam asked.
"Just making sure." Theo said.
"I wouldn't have put you in hell again, even if you really deserve it." Liam said.
Theo looked at him for a minute. He had listened to his heartbeat.

Liam wouldn't have put him back in hell.

"I know." Theo said.
"You know?" Liam asked.
"I know that I deserve to be in hell so thank you, for bringing me back, even if it was in order to save your pack." Theo said.

It felt strange for him talking about these things. He felt vulnerable.
Liam was looking at him with an adorable frown on his face.

"Look, Liam." Theo said, licking his bottom lip. "I'm sorry. I know you don't believe me, but I'm so sorry for everything I've done."
"You're sorry?" Liam asked.
"Yeah." Theo said, looking down to his feet. He couldn't stand the eye contact anymore, it was making him weak.
"You know that saying sorry doesn't fix things?" Liam voice brought him back from his trance. He looked at the beta again. "I know, and I'll prove you that I mean it. I'll gain your trust back, if you let me." Theo said.
"Well, saving my ass tonight was a good start." Liam said, offering Theo a small smile.

Theo couldn't help but smiling back at him at that was the happiest he had felt in months.

"Liam, are you coming?" Hayden shouted from distance, breaking the little bubble which was isolating them from the rest of the world.

"So...you'll stay in Beacon Hills?" Liam asked.
"Yeah." Theo breathed out.
"Good." Liam said, before turning his back to him and reaching Hayden.