My Depresstion Thoughts

My Thoughts

I'm not Christan this is just the way i think

this comes from the very back of my mind and i screamed it to my friend when she went to the hospital after almost killing herself

*here it goes*

What if there is no other life's and this is the only life. Your gonna kill yourself for something stup*d.

No one knows what's gonna happen next.

When we die, we die there is no coming back.

Their may not be no after life to live. We're all going back to where we came from.

Dust we are and Dust we shall return (Genesis 3:19)

Do you remember anything of before you where born. Nothing but darknees all around right.

Do you wan't that not seeing or feeling nothing you can't move you can't wake up from that and come back like if you where asleep...

You're where born for a reason "God" gave you life.
He let us borrow our soul but he didn't give our soul to us.
We may call our souls ours but they ain't their his.
You didn't give life to yourself he did and only he will take it away at the right time not when you want it.

After a rain comes a storm but after comes a rainbow and your rainbow will shine brighter then the pain you feel...

And your maybe saying that you feel lonly or unloved that nobody needs you. I'll tell you what my mind says about that..

STOP!!!... look around you open your eyes your family may seem like they don't or they really don't care but that dosen't mean they don't love you or need you..

And if no one needs you, "God" will give you someone that does. Their is always someone that will need you.

And if no one love you good cuz your already loved by the only one that needs to love you "God" he will take things that you love away but he will repay you with something or someone much much better..

Im not scared of death im scared of what will happen next.
Those who wanna take the easy way out are fuckend stupid because there is no easy way out.
When someone who has committed suicide thinking it's the only way out signed themself's up for hell for the rest of eternity you maybe living a fuckend hell but don't take your life for it..
Wait untill your old enough it what i'm doing. I've been wishing to die for a very long while but i hold myself together for me and only me
Those who need me i'm alive to help i maybe far away but i wanna help i don't want you to spend the the reat of eterinty in a hell we there is no way out of hell.

I always stop to think about what you just read and more and it's why i'm still alive. I Thank "God" for never letting me kill myself..

I'm just saying that to live your life.
Don't you give a shit about what people say because they are not gonna judge you "God" is...

Live a happy life even if others wanna see you sad don't give them the pivilege
of that.

if you do a mistake say
"God" please forgive me because no matter how many mistakes you do no one will forgive you so many times as "God".
He will always forgive you for so many mistakes as long as you mean it from heart

This maybe the only life we live don't waste it making yourself into pieces to keep others whole

and if that didn't help you mabye this will.
If you think you got it bad others have it worse then you
their is people that don't have nothing to eat
nothing to drink
nothing to wear
nothing what so ever
you have a phone or what ever you have to read this they don't
you have a house to live in
they don't
they die in the streets like if they're dog's and nobody cares
but they are also people
they also have a live like evey single breathing thing around you
when they die they will not die happy because they lived in
pain,
hunger,
thisty,
in misery
hating the only live they may ever have
we didn't ask to be born but "God" knows what he is doing do you know what your doing
if you don't wanna live and just wanna die well go ahead but where will you go after death think about it

no matter if you think your different your not, because we all have the same colour of blood and we come from the same place
so don't feel bad cuz your different feel poud, because people like you are
limited edition we have no limits
and if you feel bad about it it's not the haters that get in your way the only person in the way of your happyness is you so get out of your own way and let yourself be happy

nothing to me says Heaven and Hell is real
and if it is we are in between it
the decisions you make now will effect you when you get jugde by "God" he will say ratter you go to Heaven or Hell for all eternity
no matter the hell your living in now the choice is yours it's your life to live not to take.

Just remember no love it bigger then the one "God" has for us.

Every second it a ticking time boom because in any second we will die.

Those are my Thoughts that always come to me when i'm gonna do something stupid

I'm always thinking:

*what will happen when we die

*why do we live

*why do i feel so useless

*why when i help nothing comes out. How i want it

*why i'm i such a bother to every one

* why im i so stupid

*why can't i just die

than "God" won't let me do what i want
*kill myself
*harm myself

He may let you go through pain, but he will pay you for your suffering with something or someone so much better

nobody has the right to make you feel bad not even yourself

we are not given a good or bad life
we are given life and it's up to you to make it
good or bad

Hope this was of help to you as it is to me.

Dear God
Thank You For Another Day.
Watch Over My Family,
And Whoever Is Reading This,
Bless Them In A Way They've Naver Known Before.