Storm eyes

Why is this Happening!!!

Lucy's POV
It's been almost over a mouth now sense me being captured by the dark guild I was sent to take out most of my injuries had healed but not all. I for some reason couldn't walk I was some how paralyzed from the waist down, the doctors and magic doctors couldn't figure out why. They send it was probably from trauma due to the accident because they was no damage done to my spine. Now I am stuck in a wheelchair and trying to learn how to cope with it.
Laxus has never left my side I haven't decided if it was good or bad yet. He is constantly trying to help me making my meal, helps get me into the bathroom when I have to go to the restroom or shower he lefts me out of bed with ease to put me in my wheelchair he sometimes pushes me because I don't have my full strength back to do it all the time
I feel so helpless I can't do anything on my own anymore I messed up big time. Why is this happening to me!!
And now recently I have been having nightmares about what happened that night. I wake up some night screaming, with cold sweats and tears in my eyes. remembering the horrors that happen that night. i cant even bring my knees to my chest to feel safe anymore why is this happening to me i did nothing to desire this i has my heart broken and then i was almost torched to death but the nightmares are the worst part because its is sometimes natsu torching me saying how stupid i am to thing that i could ever be with him but i guess its my own fault for thinking it i just want him out of my head i don't want this any more.
one night i woke up scream and laxus was right next to me trying to tell me "no one is here. no one is hurting you." in a clam soothing voice try to hold and confer me i bared my face in his chest, shaking i stared to cry. this is the safest i have ever felt in the last little while. he felt so warm and protective of me i felt something else that i could not tell what is was. he let me go and laded me back down and stared to walk away i grabbed his shirt to stop him. "don't go " i whispered to him. he scratched the back of his head and moved back to the chair that was there by the bed, and sits down.
      "Can you hold me hand please?" Without saying a word he takes me hand and looks at me worried. I say nothing else. I closed my eyes and fell asleep to the warmth of his hand in mine.