Saturday, February 24
day 2:
ok so first of all we need to go over what happened last night. so terrible night to say the least. i decided i was going to go to "the bridge" with olivia. olivia is a friend i've had for awhile she's like a sister to me, her mom also has cancer and were legally adopting her when her mom passes away. so anyways I'm getting ready right and danny snapped me.
Danny-"whatcha getting ready for constance?"
Constance-"the bridge."
Danny-"oh me too."
and i'm kinda dumb so i didn't get what he meant so i said
Constance-"what?"
Danny-"i was thinking about going to the bridge too😋"
oh.my.god.
he cannot use the flirty tongue emoji. aghhh and i was like freaking out but then i got a grip on reality.
Constance-"but your not gonna wanna hangout with me if your girlfriends there."
boom
Danny-"she's not my girlfriend."
(yet.)
Constance-"but she's gonna be. then your not gonna want to hangout with a girl who likes you."
Danny-"constance above all we are still bestfriends."
Constance-"sure."
then he said something else and i didn't reply. i went to the bridge and almost had a panic attack. first of all i was wearing a shirt that totally showed skin and it was cropped so a lot of boys were staring at me. second of all i didn't know what to do when danny came in. and i knew i'd have to talk to him because his bestfriend jack was coming with him and i promised jack i'd hangout with him. so i looked over at the door, and it was madison and stormi and i was a little pissed but i still said hi to stormi. then before i knew it i looked over again and saw danny and jack and almost lost my shit. well i walked over to jack and hugged him and kinda ignored danny. he kept looking at me and i wanted him to stop because he looks at me like i'm the only girl in the world, and i currently i hate it. so jack and i hung out most the night and then blake tagged along. blake was the first boy i had ever kissed and he was super hot but awkward as f. anyways after awhile danny came along with us and i had three not bad looking guys just following me around. i hate how danny kept looking at me it was annoying so i was giving him some dirty looks. we all decided to play pool which i'm greatly talented at so i always win. (probably because i've had a pool table and played since i was 6) so every time i would get down and aim my shot i would see danny looking and me and mess up. ugh. so at the end of the night when jack and danny had to leave i got up to walk them out and danny pulled me back and asked,
"constance are we good?"
"no danny were really not."
"why not?"
i ignored him and started walking until he pulled me back again.
"why not?? tell me."
"because you have never ever been at a point in your life when you've liked someone so much it hurts to think about them not being yours. seeing you and madison hold hands and her even put her head on your shoulder made me want to scream. i'm sorry but we are not good until you open your eyes and see who your meant for."
he just looked at me in a sad way.
and i walked away.
and i went home.
and he texted me.
and i texted back.
because i'm weak.
and i can't help myself.
it's 1 in the afternoon and my day has just started. so that's all for now.
