WARNING THIS IS A KINDA SAD CHAPTER!!
Sky's P.O.V.
After we got off the bus, I went inside and threw my list onto my bed. I hate it. I'm not going there! But that Steven, he was nice. And Xander seemed nice too. Oh well. I'm still not going. "Hey Sky. Do you want to change? We are going to Starbucks. I probably wouldn't." Jinxx said. "Nope I'm good. Let me grab some cash and then we can go." I said. I took a $20 and went with Jinxx to Starbucks. I don't like coffee but what ever.
When we got there, he held my hand. And I mean like the intertwined fingers holding hands, not just holding my hand. I smiled a small smile. "What do you want?" Jinxx asked. "I don't know. I don't really drink coffee, so..." I answered with a shrug. "Well you should have said something. Where do you want to go?" Jinxx asked. "Home. I want to watch a movie with you and cuddle." I said. "Ok lets go home and watch a movie and maybe cuddle.." He said.
We got back home and I changed into an oversized sweatshirt and a pair of sweat pants. Comfy cuddly clothes. I went into the living room to find Jinxx in a pair of sweat pants. No shirt. And we might cuddle!!! :3 ;) "What movie do you want to watch Sky?" Jinxxy asked. "Something gory!" I shouted a little too enthusiastically. "So you like blood?" He asked. "Yes Jinxxy. Now lets pick a movie!" I answered. "Saw?" "I saw them all already." I joked. "I don't know any other gory movies..." "What do you want to watch?" "Uh.. I want to watch-" "PORN!!" Ashley butted in. "Go away please!?" I yelled. "No." "I said please for Christ's sake!" "I'm chaperoning you two so I know nothing happens between you two. All that is allowed is hugging and hand holding. Got it? No cuddling!" He yelled the last part. I gave him the finger. "Oh really? I didn't have to take you and Thalia in! I did it out of pity! You guilt tripped me into it!" Ashley yelled angerly. He didn't want us. I knew it. This was all too good to be true. He hates us. He doesn't want us. I ran to my room and locked the door. I got out my box. I really thought life was worth living since the adoption, but I don't believe the lies anymore. I'm done.
In my box I kept more than razors. I had lighters, pills, and cigarets. I grabbed the lighter and light it up. I burned my wrist a few more times. My last few times. I cut the words 'He doesn't love us' and 'he doesn't want us' into my arm. I let the blood run freely out of the cuts instead of trying to slow it. I took al of the pills that I had collected over the last year at the orphanage. I counted how many there were. 37. They were all pain killers. Maybe they will take away my pain. I took them 2 at a time, and got 23 down. Then everything started going fuzzy. I heard a banging on the door. And then it all ended.
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When I woke up, I was in a field. But it wasn't just any field. My mum took me there when she still loved me. I watched a younger me be pushed on the swings by her. We were both laughing like crazy. Then the scene shifted, and I was still in the field, but my mum was beating the younger me. I cried out for help. And then my help came. The cops came and put her in jail. I was taken to an orphanage. The scene shifted to before the cops came, and my dad was still alive. When life was perfect. He kissed me on the forehead and tucked me in for bed. The it all went white.
I woke a second time. This time I was in hell it seemed. Everything was dark and kinda scary. I saw my mum beating me again. But this time the cops didn't come. And nobody heard my cries of pain. She took out a sharp knife and cut 'I am worthless' into my right side. I'm still not sure if she was talking about me or herself at the time, but now it seems like she means me.
I looked under my shirt that I was now wearing. I still had the scars and you could still read it. I started picking at the scars. Trying to open them again and feel the blood trickle, but nothing happened. I couldn't get it to open.
I then noticed the signs. It worked. I committed suicide. Now what? Bad memories for all of eternity? That sounds just like my whole life after dad passed. Speaking of which, I could hear his voice calling my name. "Skylar Kim Yets? My baby girl is all grown up now." He said with a tear in his eye. Nobody used my real full name. Nobody knew it. "Dad I missed you." I said as I ran into his arms. "I missed my little girl growing up into a big girl. I know what happened. I've been watching over you." He said and then let me go from the hug. "Daddy I'm sorry I know I did a lot of bad things but it was my way of coping. I didn't know you were watching and I didn't believe in an after life, but I guess I was wrong." I told him. "After life? No. This is just the inbetween. Like from that one movie you watched. (The lovely bones) You don't belong here. Not yet. Its too early." He said. Dad gave me one more hug and a kiss on the forehead. Then he pushed me away from him.
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I woke up in the hospital. What? I thought I was dead. With my dad... I could almost feel his arms around me still. I looked at my arms. They had bandages on them. I had a lot of machines hooked up to me, and one of them was beeping like crazy. "She's alive." Jinxx said staring at me in awe. "I saw my dad." I said with a really scratchy voice. How long was I out?? "How long was-" "You were... gone... for 3 days. Do you want some water? Your voice sounds like you need it. I'll go get a nurse, again." Jinxx said. He came back a few minutes later with a nurse. "Sir, you need to leave because we have to do a few tests." She said to Jinxx. "Ok." He said. He gave me a hug and left the room. The nurse shut the door. She took my blood pressure, checked my eyes, changed my bandages; and while they were off she cleaned my almost healed cuts. I don't know why she would be cleaning them now. Perhaps it only works if you use the cleaner stuff more than once. I don't know. I've never cleaned my cuts, just run them under some water, and patch them up. No cleaner stuff, which stings really bad. The nurse gave me a cup and a small pitcher of water. I poured a cup and drank it slowly. Jinxx came back in. He looked me over, again and again. "What?" I asked. "I'm still surprised your here. They were going to take you off life support at midnight. But your here now. And I'm so proud of you. The guys all came, even Ash. We all had to leave because he said he wanted a moment alone with you. We could here his sobs, and he was praying to God that you would live. I guess there is a God. Or this is just a freak coincident. Either way, I'm happy your here." Jinxx said. "Thank you for not giving up on me." I said. I would be crying, but I need more fluid to cry. I drank more water. "You can come home tomorrow. Do you want me to call the boys or Thalia?" He asked. "Can you call Ashley? I want to talk to him." I answered. "Yeah, I'll tell him to come here because it is an emergency.
A few minutes later Ashley came running in the room. "What is wrong? Did they take her off early????" Ashley asked very scared. "No, I wanted to tell you I'm sorry." I said. Ashley looked like he just saw a ghost. "Your alive." He said finally finding words. He walked to the side of my bed and hugged me. I hugged him back. We stayed like this for a while. "I'm going to give you two some privacy.." Jinxx said and walked out of the room. Ashley pulled away from the hug, leaving his arms around me where I felt my dad's arms when I woke up. I stared into his eyes, and he stared back. "I'm so sorry I over reacted. I'm so stupid. I'm sorry." "You have nothing to be sorry about. I on the other hand, have a ton to be sorry about. I'm sorry I said that. I didn't meant any of it. I'm sorry I drove you to do what you did. I do care. I care about both of you. I do love you. Both of you. I'm so sorry Sky. I really do love you." Ashley said meaningfully. I smiled. "Nobody has ever said anything like that to me." I said and hugged him. Ashley got up to get Jinxx.
They walked in with the rest of the boys. "How are you feeling?" Andy asked. "I'm better than I was." I answered. Thalia. Where is Thalia. "Where's Thalia?" I asked hesitantly. "She stayed at home because she didn't want to see her best friend with so many tubes and stuff hooked up to her. She thought you had been taken off life support and she wanted to remember you the way you were, not with all the tubes and machines hooked up to you." Ashley answered. A nurse walked in and said visiting hours are over so the guys left. I looked at the little clock on the wall. Christ! It was already 8:30! When I woke up it was about 7:00... I think it was anyway... I don't remember...
The nurse came back and checked my cuts. She said they were healing well, so I took it as she didn't ever deal with anything like this. After she left I went to sleep.
