"I miss you so hard," The same words I'd say every single day. I was staring longingly at the face on my phone screen, he looked so perfect and yet I couldn't reach out and touch that perfect face.
"I miss you too baby, only 1 sleep left," I smiled at that, it had been almost a month since I last got to see him and having only one night left felt surreal
"I can't wait love" I whispered, just loud enough for him to hear. I was lay in my bunk on the bus, everyone around me was asleep but I'd stay awake just so I could talk to him for any amount of time, I knew Jenna was doing the same in the bunk below me but neither of us ever spoke about it, it was too hard to talk about. Missing the person you love never gets easier, even though we've always had to do periods of long distance, I still find myself craving his touch at all times.
"You look exhausted baby, try and get some sleep," he told me in a time I knew not to argue with
"Don't hang up on me until I'm asleep though, you know I don't sleep well without you,"
"I promise I won't babe." And with that I closed my eyes at let sleep envelop me, knowing I had my king watching me from hundreds of miles away.
Derek's POV
I lay in bed, with Romie tucked under my arm, staring at my phone screen where I could see my angel falling slowly asleep.
She looked so peaceful and perfect but I knew deep down she felt as uneasy and unhappy as me. She'd ring me in the dead of night when we were both supposed to be sleeping, telling me that she couldn't sleep and that she missed my arms tightly holding her and that she missed being able to hear my heartbeat as she drifted off into sleep. Sometimes when she rang me I'd have been asleep but the majority of times I'd been lay awake, thinking very similar thoughts. I missed bed bare skin against mine and I missed her spotting heartbeat ringing through my ears but mostly I just missed her. I couldn't put into words the pain I felt because of her absence. I know she's the one, I know she will mother my children, I know she will me next to me as a die or at least I'll be besides her as she does, I know we will marry, I know we will grow old but what I don't know is when.
I guess the age gap has always been the biggest issue. I'm 9 and a half years older than her and looking to settle down. She's only 23, a mature 23 but still 23. I don't want to hold her back from her career or her youth but I don't think I can let her go on tour again, knowing we're barely going to see each other for 3 months.
Life never seems to change we're always in the same stage of life and of our relationship. Do I want to propose tomorrow when I see her , yes. Will I? Almost definitely not, we choose our a ring together 6 months ago but I can't seem to pluck up the courage and make our relationship eternal.
I slide out of bed, it's about half 12 and I really don't want to wake Jules, Brooks or the dogs. So I tiptoe silently down the stairs and out side into the garden. Looking up I see the stars and the moon but I'm not bothered about any of that right now, I continue walking until I reach my car. I've got an emergency bag of clothes in the back and the ring in the glovebox. I sit down behind the wheel, and start the car.
As I'm driving I text Jules 'I'll be back tomorrow night I think but I need to go and do something, please don't ask questions." That should suffice, she doesn't tend to ask too many questions if I tell her not to.
Hayley's POV
I wake up to light streaming through my bunk, sighing I roll over and burrow my head deep into my pillow as I do so I see my phone, D must have ended FaceTime I think to myself. I drift off back to sleep but this time it's far less peaceful. I know he's not watching me and therefore I can't seem to relax into a deep sleep. Only a few more hours I think to myself.
Okay, so I'm going to be honest with you. I'm not going to have super regular updates but I'll try to get one or two a week 😊
