My First Love

THE THERAPIST

As I sat in the waiting room of the therapist's office my nerves grew stronger. I could feel my anxiety creeping up on me slowly bit by bit my heart and mind started to race making thoughts appear faster then I could breathe.

"Sophia.......Sophia Redfrurn" The woman from behind the desk called

With my heart racing and me hearing my name called made my heart skip a beat. I stood up and said "yes" nervously.
*The doctor will see you now she said in a very polite voice in this moment I felt my whole world freeze everything was moving slow motion as I Can Feel the Rush of my anxiety pumping through my veins as I slowly walk towards that brown door when I made it in front of the door I took a deep breath and said "Here we go" then walked inside.

"Ms.Redfrun" The therapist says he looks at me

"Yes that's me" I said with a half smile trying not to look nervous

"Well sit why are you still standing there? Make yourself comfortable"

As I walked over to him I noticed he was dressed very well in a all black suit with a white button-up and a red tie he looks very sophisticated just to be a therapist. His eyes real life Wow with a nice white smile nice colored skin I knew he was mixed but I didn't know with what.He had a little beard but it was well tooken care of. I'm finding him very attractive. But the one thing I knew was he was not supposed to be a therapist. As I sat down in the comfortable chair next to him I shook his hand. His hands were soft but he had a really good grip.

"Sorry if I'm acting a little werid this is just my first time doing this and I don't know what to expect" I said trying to fight off a anxiety attack.

"Don't worry" He said as he looked at me with slight concern "So does this happen often?"

I stare at him with confusion "I'm sorry what are you talking about?"

Well I've been watching your body language ever since you walked in the Room and i've noticed that your breathing getting worse....... Honey your having a anxiety attack" He said as he touched my hand. I felt a shiver run up my spine. I shivered as a million thoughts ran through my mind. I suddenly became hard to breathe and to focus......Oh no it was happening again...NOT NOW. NOT in front of the really hot therapist. Everything went black. When I regained my consciousness I was layed out in the couch.

He was a cross the room at the bar he had took off the jacket part to his suit.
So now all I could see was his white shirt and his tie. As he turned around he started talking

"Here drink this water" He handed me a glass of water "Does this happen often?"

I look up at him I just shook my head because I couldn't utter the words out of my mouth he was just so cute. As I looked up at the clock it was 15 minutes before my session was over. He looked at me,

"Don't worry I don't have anyone next session.....I want to make sure your ok.......Sophia.....it's Sophia Isn't it?

"Um...uh....yes" I finally seemed to utter out.

He looked at me and asked,

"Have you eaten today?" He asked at he looked at me 

"No I wasn't  really hungry today" I said trying not to look at him

"You do realize it's almost 7 o'clock?

"Yes I do" I said with a little snarl in my voice 

"Your very defensive? Why is that?" He said 

"Ok Thank you for your time, but I don't think that this is not for me. Because what we not gonna do is act like you know everything about me. But thank you so much for everything." I said as got up and grabbed my bag.

"Sophia..........That's not what i'm trying to do at all....but if you wanna go you can go that's your choice. I just wanted to get to know you. It's just my job to get to know you.

I looked at him and looked at me. I smiled and as walked out the door I said,

"See you next week."

On my home in the car I was thinking to myself 

"Who does this ass hole think he is? Thinking that he knows everything about me and thinking that he can figure everything about me out. Like I'm a product of some kind of book that he can just  open a book and look up whats wrong with me......NIGGA WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE I AM NOT THAT SIMPLE LIKE YOU THOUGHT.......Let me calm down before I crash this mother fucking car.

As I pull up to my house I notice my lights are on and it can only be one person, and I pull out my I Phone and call my best friend 

"BITCH WHY THE FUCK ARE ALL MY LIGHTS ON IN MY DAMN HOUSE?" I yelled at her

"FIRST OFF BITCH LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING I CAN TURN ON ALL THE MOTHER FUCKING LIGHT IN OURRRRR MOTHER FUCKING HOUSE...........BITCH" SHE YELLED AT ME

"OK BITCH WATCH THIS I'M ON MY WAY IN THAT MOTHER FUCKER AND I'M GOING TO BEAT YOUR ASS HOE"  I yelled as I got out of my car and slammed the car door and walked up my drive way. I walked up to my front door and put key in door and turned it when I opend the door I can not believe what I'm seeing.........

WRITERS NOTE: THIS IS MY FIRST BOOK AND I'M WORKING REALLY HARD TO MAKE GOOD CONTENT AND PUT OUT I'M GOING TO TRY TO HAVE A NEW CHAPTER OUT EVERY WEEK- HARLEY