is this depressed? Ticcitoby Creepypasta

Is this deppressed?

{Toby pov}

  I wake up  from a nightmare like any normal day......I went to the bathroom and stare at the mirror.

STUPID

DUMBASS

THEY HATE YOU

YOU KILL HER

YOU SHOULD DIED NOT HER

YOU ARE NOTHING

  I take a shower and wear my normal cloths.I put on my goggle and mouth guard.I like put them on so i can hide my useless face from everyone.......I went downstair to the dining room.The other pasta already at the table doing their own stuff......I sit next to Slendy and Masky.Then i start to ennoyed Masky like any normal day......"H-Hey M-asky! (X23 time)" I said.Masky turn his head to me and said "*sigh* What?" he ask."N-Nothing........" I said.I sound like I was deppressed.I never sound like that before.Oh no......."Toby are you ok?" Hoddie ask grabbing the other pasta attention.Their eyes was on me "Y-Yeah!I'm f-fine......I just t-tired....." I answer still sound depress......I got up and walk out the dining room and run to my room.I lock my door room and sit in the corner of my room.I take my small knive under my bed and start to cut my arm......

*not my picture i found this in google"

  This is my daily routine......the other dont know that i was cutting but if they do........what will they do about it.......

MAKE FUN OF YOU OF COURSE

THEY DONT CARE

THEY HATE YOU

THEY WANT YOU TO SUFFER

  I watch my arm as the blood coming out of it.......I want to feel something more than deppress,sad,tired and useless......... I rape my bloddy hand and clean the blood on the floor.I got out of my room and went downstair.Ben and Jeff was playing video game.Sally and Jane playing tea party.Ej and Lj eating kidneys and candy.Masky and Hoddie chatting about something.I walk down the stair and walk to Masky and Hoddie."Y-Yo g-guys!" I said."Yo" Hoddie answer."What do you want Toby?" Masky ask."N-Nothing" I answer.My arm was showing a little so I cover it with my hand."Toby what are you hiding under your hand?" Masky ask getting the other pasta attention their eyes was on me once again.......Oh boy this is not going to be good....."Uhhhhhh n-nothing!" I said as I back away to run to my room.Jeff walk to me and grab my hand showing my cut to the other."Oh come on show u-" Jeff pause as he saw my cut.OH SHIT GREAT JUST GREAT! "Hahahaha t-this i-is a-awkward uhhhh" I said.They stare at me......."Toby are you doing cutting?" Jeff ask as he let go of my hand. "Uhhhhh n-no? o-ok f-fine -yes!" I said."But why?" Masky ask."I uhh how do i say this *giggle* *sigh* uhhhh i was deppress......" I said staring down to my feet........"What do you mean?" Ben ask.I start to shaking."I w-was s-scared if y-you g-guys will l-leave me like h-how Lyra d-did or h-ate me s-so i just k-kept it a s-secret......." I said i can feel tear started to run down my cheek......."Toby........." Jane said.I feel like something killing me I fell on my knees and started to coughfing.I cant breath......

then i saw black......

{Masky pov}

   THE FUCK JUST HAPPEND! "TOBY?!" I shout as Toby coughfing on his knees.Ej run to Toby."Toby are you ok?!" Ej ask Toby didnt answer.Then toby fell to the floor panting.Toby's face was red.......Me and Hoddie walk to Toby."Masky can you help take Toby to his room?" Ej ask I nodded and lift Toby's weak body up.Hoddie follow me from my back.

  We get in Toby's room and I put Toby on his bed.I saw a box under his bed I take the box out."Hey Hoddie come look what i found under Toby's bed" I said quietly dont want to wake Toby up.Hoddie walk to me "What is it?" he ask.I open the box and saw a knive with Toby's blood,a picture of Toby and his sister Lyra and some note.I take the note out of the box.Me and Hoddie started to read one.
______________________________________
14 June 2017

   I'm Toby.My real name is Tobias Erin Rogers.I am 16 I live with my abussive father and my sweet mother.I have a older sister before but she died in a car crash.Every night I alway have the same nightmare about the car crash i had with my sister.My father become more abussive and he will alway come back home drunk.He would beat me and my mother every morning,every night,every day.I was scared I want to be with my sister again she the only person who understand.

Lyra I miss you.....

                                                             -Toby
______________________________________

Me and Hoddie just read one note and stop......Toby.......I take all the note and put the box back under Toby's bed and go to me and Hoddie room.

{Hoddie pov}

  After reading that note......it break my heart.....Toby have been doing cutting and hidding secret from us.....How could he think that we will hate him? I had never hate him I would never hate him! "Hey Hoddie?" Masky ask "Yeah?" I ask."Do you think we should tell the other about the note?" he ask again "I think that a good idea lets go." I answer.

  Masky and I run downstair where the pasta are."Guys look what I found under Toby's bed" Masky said handing the other the note that me and him read before.Jane cover her mouth and cry.Sally is crying.Ben and Jeff made eyes-contact.Lj and Ej stare at the note."Do you found other than these note?" Ej ask turning his head to Masky and I."Well.......we found a small knive with Toby's blood on it and a picture of Toby and his sister Lyra." I said.

To be continue.....

{Quick note from me}

Hi! I hope this story is better than the other.I change some stuff in this story.Tell me in the chat what should I change next.

k bye~