Letters To J | p.j.m

Dear Leila

Dear Leila,
I can't believe I'm writing to you despite my efforts to completely push you away. I guess I tried to push you away because you were the only positive thing in my life and when my parents told me we were moving to Japan, I thought it was the easiest way to let go. The truth is, I'm still holding on and I still love you like you say you love me. I wouldn't dare forget all the memories we made because they seemed to complete me and trust me, my love for you has dwelled in my heart since the moment we met. You don't know how deeply I've wanted to hear your voice again or hear you call me Chim. Your laugh was always my favorite thing about you and I hear it in my head sometimes when I'm alone, missing you. You know, yesterday I was walking in a garden and the cherry blossoms were falling around me engulfing everything in a snow like blanket and It was just beautiful. I was surrounded by beauty everywhere I turned , but something was missing, and I couldn't quite figure it out until I realized it was you. You were always the most beautiful thing in my life , you know that? Trust me, I feel your pain and I want nothing more than to hug you and hear your laugh and hold your hand and tell you nothing will ever tear us apart, but I can't because you know my parents won't let me because of everything I went through back in Busan, I promise you my love, that we'll find a way back to each other, but until then know that not one day has gone by where you haven't crossed my mind .

I love you,
Chim