Only 2 people know about my mental problems. My mom and my best guy friend Ethan. Please dont be scared as I say this.
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I have thoughts of killing people. Not on purpose..its just happens. but sometimes its on purpose. And not just think I will kill them. NO its way worse. I think of ways to torture them and make them suffer in the most painful ways possible. Its really wrong and I scare myself because of it. I am fucked up but I cant stop the thoughts from rolling into my head. I scream and have nightmares because of those thoughts. I am afraid of my owm mind.
My the other problem is that I have 2 minds. One mind tells me keep going and it will get better. But that mind is shy and barely likes to speak up. My second mind yells at me, especially at night. it says im fat, ugly, worthless, an attention seeker, stupid, etc. And that mind has no problem speaking its mind. My second mind makes me cry at night. Not because Im scared but because I know it tells the truth.
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Historia CortaPlease do not judge me for what I say. I am sorry if you cant fully comprehend my writings. I am just another delressed girl in this fucked up game we call life. I am truley sorry if my thoughts scare you. I just wonder if I am alone.
