Dear ME

Fake smiles

Dear Me,
I know, i know, you may be a happy and a joyful girl ya know just like bursting into laughter and cares for somebody's health,But...I know deep down of you is really sad. Your mom scolding you for no reason and yells at you in a minor problems, Your classmates always ignore you like you were a ghost but all you did was to.....smile
I know that smile of you is really really fake, you used to cut a year ago ........Ya just pretend that everything is fine for you but its already broken for you. You even hate the sentence 'Are you okay?'
'Are you fine?' but instead you say Yes instead saying if No and you excuse yourself at the dining table and said you will go to the restroom and all you do there is to....cry. You cry too at night hiding from the blankets. Fate is already around you yet you didn't care but to smile to know people that your happy but you aren't. Your anxious at times and you kept chanting you wanna die but you want to get save
You kept saying IM FINE IM FINE
please just tell the truth you are always sad and depressed.....
Are ya?

Yours truly,
your other self