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~Breanna's POV

"She mean't a lot to you- I'm so sorry, Breanna."  Louis rubbed circles into my back as I cried forcefully into my hands, "She's in a better place."

"Better place? There is no better place, Louis." I cried even harder at the fact that Lucy is gone, "There is no Heaven and there's no Hell; there is no better place."

It's been a few days and I've been still mourning over Lucy, she's been one of te most important figure's in my life and always will be even if she's not here. She was like a grandmother to  me, she was like a mom to me too. My mom and I don't keep in contact anymore, we went out separate ways. We don't even text one another to see if we're alright, we're not close at all. I've never had a father in my life before, my mom told me he left when she gave birth to me so I don't care. Lucy will always hold a special place in my life,  she mean't so damn much to me and it hurts that it was her time to leave. 

I suck at handling things like this, I trusted Lucy so much. I told her everything that I never told anyone - she never judged me. She'd just simply listen and give me advice about what I should do with my career, she was the only person I even talked to about my career, anyways. I loved her so much; I always will.

Louis stared at me with a sad face, he put his arms over my shoulders pulling me into hm. He hugged me, rubbing my shoulders now. When Lucy passed away, Louis was the first person I called.  I had no one to express my feelings to - Louis has been staying with me since the day Lucy left and it's been so nice of him. I never thought Louis would do that, we have been on and off - one moment we hate each other and then the next we're talking like nothing, we're helping one another out. He's been a big help and  thank him so much for that. I've just been thinking so much lately, he's the one who made me think more forward and more about my career. I guess you could say he's someone I trust now, he's helped me during the past few days.

"Breanna, look at me," Louis pushed his finger under my chin, brining my head up for me to stare at him. "It'll be fine, okay? Harry just called me and I have to go see what's up, I'll be back alright?" 

Before I knew it Louis was up and leaving my apartment.

It made me wonder, why was Louis and Harry so close? I've heard that they're best friends, but they just seem so much more. Yesterday, Louis was talking to me about Harry like Harry was such a valuable object, like he mean't so much to him. Maybe they were just friends - Louis was making it seem otherwise. 

I got up wrappng my robe farther around my body, I quickly made my way to the bathroom and glanced at my messy appearance in the mirror that hung above my sink. My eyes were red, puffy and they looked like more tears were to come. My cheeks were stained with tears -  my hair was a mess. I tried to brush my hair, but there was only a knot in my hair keeping me from fixing it. The brush that was in my hand ended up getting tangled in my hair so I gave up, there was no use for doing anything anyways. 

My phone that was set on the bathroom counter began to vibrate, I stared at the Caller ID to see that it was Caitlyn. That wasn't a surprise, I knew she was going to call sooner or later.

Sighing, I answer the phone monotonely. "Hi."

"Breanna! How're you, doll? We need you dressed and ready, we've decided that you and Louis tour London today." Caitlyn sounded eager as I was still frowning, "We just called him and he's going back to pick you up so be ready!" 

And with that, Caitlyn hung up the phone.

~Louis' POV

"Harry, I have to go." I pout, letting Harry kiss the corner of my lips.

"You've just got here, babe." Harry placed one last kiss on my lips before pulling away and opening the door for me.

"I'll call you when I get back with Breanna, okay?" I smiled knowing that I'll talk to him again, I haven't been about to talk to Harry as much anymore.

Caitlyn has expected me to be busy with Breanna when she knows that I at least need a little time with my boyfriend. Harry admitted his feelings for me the exact same day Lucy passed away, when Breanna called the first few times I ignored her to cuddle and hang around Harry - when she kept calling and calling I knew something was up and that was when she was practically choking on her own tears. She couldn't even talk properly, she sounded as if she was about to die herself. I felt bad and raced to be by her side. She needed someone so I was there.

When I first arrived to see Breanna, she looked horrible. Her face was drained with mascara and running makeup, she wasn't alright. When I had met Breanna for the very first time during the signing of the papers, she looked like someone who wouldn't take bullshit. She looked like a strong person and when I saw her like that at the hospital crying her eyes out, I knew how much of an impact Lucy's death took on her. She was devasted, she looked like she was about to burst open. 

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I held onto Breanna's hand tightly, we were touring around in London just as Caitlyn told us to, but what she didn't tell us was the swarm of paparazzi and fans that would be crowding Breanna and I.

Every once in awhile I'd stare back at Breanna, her eyes looked as if they'd burst into tears any moment by now. She kept her head low with her hair in her face so nobody would see her. Caitlyn knew about Lucy dying, but she doesn't want to give Breanna a damn break. She's been mourning Lucy for what seems forever, I know it'd be a few until she actually passes over her. 

The last time I turned to get a short glimpse of Breanna - I saw small tears falling from her nose. Her hand went up to her face to wipe away the waterworks, but I grabbed her wrist softly, bringing her toward me and leaning in - planting a few small kisses on her lips. I did what was necessary.

The paparazzi snapped photos, I saw flashes when I opened my eyes and pulled away from the kiss I didn't want to do at all. Fan snapped photos on their phones and some aw'd, if only they knew who I actually wanted. 

a/n: i'll edit this chapter because i noticed some really bad grammar errors but yeah, if you enjoyed this chapter make sure to comment, vote, share and give me a follow. thank you :) x