Simanda oneshots

The Grim Reaper's call

I just finished reading Amanda's book, and this book includes people and real things that happened that I read about in the book. It's great and I've marked all things Simanda in it! I also cried multiple times.... There are also a lot of pictures at the end and the second to last one is a baby picture Hollie and my goodness she is the cutest!

Omg I've written this thing for over 2 months now and I wrote the text above when I started. If you have the attention span to read 8962 words then go ahead. This is a mess and it was supposed to end after like 2000 words but I wanted to keep writing so I did! It's quite messy and a lot happens and I'm really nervous to post this but I hope you enjoy!

PS: Hollie is still the cutest

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I sat across the dinner table from Chris as he watched Hollie try strawberries for the first time. It was entertaining to watch as she tried to remove the leafs only to squeeze the strawberry so hard it flew up and hit her in the face. Lexi was laughing so hard she almost chocked on her breakfast and I just studied my beautiful, perfect family. A few years ago I thought my life was over. Me and Chris had been on cloud 9 since Lexi was born but we were brought back into the harsh reality when I miscarried our first son, and then had another stillborn son. I had been severely depressed, but I had managed to cover it up pretty well. I like to say that I put on a mask whenever I need to, and I know that isn't always the best, which I was also made aware of when one day I just broke down on the set of Shrek. I would never take my own life - I have too much to live for - but I can see why some people choose to take that route. Life was living hell, and looking back at it I don't know how we made it through. It was all worth it in the end though, as my beautiful Hollie was born one year later. I credit my recovery to, of course Chris, but just as much as I credit him I credit Simon. I never thought I would feel that way, but he really showed how much he cared for me. When I had lost my second baby Simon was away in America working, and Micheal and David, or as I like to call him 'the Hoff', joined me on the judging panel of Britain's got talent. Even though I didn't meet Simon during that time he sent me flowers so many times I lost count. Each bouquet would include a note that wished me well. I got that from a lot of people, but Simon's meant so much. With everything he had going on he still cared for me, and it's just a feeling I can't explain with him. He does these small things for me, and coming from anyone else I wouldn't care too much, but when it comes from him it just feels special. When he got back to the UK he came over to my house the next day whilst Chris was working and Lexi was at school. We sat and talked for forever and I told him everything. I cried, I laughed and I was angry. He just listened to me, he never interrupted me and let me talk, and for the first time since I lost our little baby boy I took my mask of and let it all out. What a lot of people don't know about Simon is how sweet he actually is. He has the biggest heart out of everyone I know, and I know that sounds bad coming from a married woman with kids, but it's true. I'm just happy I'm so close with him, and we have this special bond Simon and I. I really do love him, and if I didn't have Chris I strongly believe I would be married to him.

"Lexi, you have to go upstairs and brush your teeth and then I'll take you and Hollie to school." I heard Chris say and I watch as Lexi puts her dirty dishes on the counter before she leaves the kitchen and soon I hear light footsteps running up the stairs.

"Thank you for doing the school run today Chris." I say and smile at my darling husband.

"No problem, love." He says as lifts up Hollie so she can put her dishes on the counter just like her big sister.