As a young child I wasn't what you'd call cute, I was considered ugly and fat.
Me, my mother, and my older brother kept getting evicted after the loss of my father who was a former drug dealer he always gave us a roof over our heads but when he died we lost everything.
The eviction notices and switching shelters constantly caused my 17 year old brother Mike to get into the streets and make us quick money. At the time I was 13, Me nor my mother agreed to his decision but it was the only way.
He didn't make as much money as we expected and by the age of 15 I had lost a lot of weight not because of exercising but from starvation. At the age of 16 my brother now 19 Mike had became the boss of the drug exchange FwX he made hella money. I had my first bf at 16 as well.
No boy ever tried to date me because they knew how crazy mike can get. But Marcus was different, he didn't care he knew what he wanted and went for it. We went out for a good 7 months.
Marcus always asked to have sex with me, I always rejected him. I wanted to lose my virginity on an accident.... you know, unexpectedly... I didn't want to feel rushed into sex. Marcus didn't like the wait so he cheated on me.
I cried for days, and of course you know what he did, he did as all sorry ass niggas do, he said his "sorry's" "I'll never do it again." I didn't wanna hear that shit. He made me heartless I literally gave zero fucks he wasn't getting any chances. I forgave him but I wasn't gonna forget it; sorry lord.
It's funny because before he cheated.... I prayed, "Dear lord, i think I'm gonna give my innocence to Marcus, if he's a bad guy please give me a sign." I wish I never asked, but now I know that Marcus wasn't the one for me and God had known that.
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I'm now 19 years old and still a virgin. I hadn't been in a relationship since 16 years old and I'm over it, I'm ready to feel what these porn stars are feeling. I never understood why people had sex all the time but I'm ready to understand. At 16 I gave a fuck who I lost my virginity to but now I don't care.
I live in Atlanta, Georgia. You guys don't know how hard it was to receive 6 scholarships may I repeat SIX scholarships. I accepted one and now I attend UGA, I love this school if I do say so my self, they say college girls are freaks tuh I'm a freak in my head, I can't speak on nothing because I ain't lose my v card yet.
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Friends with Benefits.
General Fiction*currently being edited* but it's completed. when autumn meets kingpin "jelani" also known as "killa" at a party everything changes. jelani and autumn become friends with benefits-will they grow to want something more? will autumn go for his promisc...
