Boxed In

Kim Mingyu.

In a world where the fates are predestined, illusions are twisted to be authentic and dreaming was a sin, Kim Mingyu was everything he was supposed to stand against. Living his life in the shadows, darkness was no stranger to Mingyu. He almost fell in love with the feeling of being so cryptic; the only buzz in his almost static life. Kim Mingyu was a dreamer. He was curious. He knew it was wrong, he knew it was against everything he's ever been taught yet there was just something so right about it. Something so inviting about the oblivion of knowledge. Knowing so much yet knowing so little. Kim Mingyu was a ticking time bomb.
Mingyu wanted to grow and explore and discover. He wanted to uncover the secrets lying in the dark. Kim Mingyu wanted to go the distance, to travel to infinity, get lost in the forest of growing and be found again in the serendipity of knowing who he was. Kim Mingyu was a ticking time bomb.
Mingyu didn't understand who he was or what he stood for. Kim Mingyu didn't understand how or why the System worked. Kim Mingyu didn't understand why dreaming, wanting, craving; knowing, was wrong. He didn't understand why he was kept in the dark. He didn't understand why he wasn't given the benefit doubt. Kim Mingyu didn't understand why he couldn't figure out everything for himself. He didn't understand why he couldn't grow from the rubble of his  choices. He didn't understand why he couldn't just be himself. Kim Mingyu was a ticking time bomb.
Kim Mingyu was everything between 3 am cigarette puffs and 3 pm family picnics. Mingyu had the perfect everything. He had nothing to be ungrateful for- a "perfect" little family, "perfect" friends, "perfect" looks and a "perfect" life. No one knew Mingyu, not really. No one knew how he taught, what he wanted or where he wanted to go. No one knew his deepest fear- never unravelling the mind boggling mystery of life, no one knew his favourite food or even his favourite TV show. Kim Mingyu was a ticking time bomb.
Mingyu believed the sweet lies the stash of "explicit" movies- movies from before the System, presented to him. He believed in ill fated lovers meeting again, falling in love forever, stolen smiles and all too perfect confessions. Mingyu believed some one would come along and listen to the lamest of his  jokes and laugh, not because they were supposed to but because they wanted to. He believed someone would hold him when he was sad or annoyed or frustrated. He believed in sweet nothings and love. Love- the only enemy of the System, the only flaw of human nature, the very evil that would have resulted in the downfall of human race if the System didn't come into being. Kim Mingyu was a ticking time bomb.