It's four in the morning and I'm lying here. Trying to go to sleep. It's impossible when the only thing running through my mind is him. We just broke up and I know why but at the same time I don't. I knew this would come at one point or another but I never would have imagined it would be now. I'm broken.
I wake up the next morning and remember everything that happened the previous day.
* we were in math and we had a substitute that day. We could sit anywhere we wanted and he was sitting all by himself so I went and sat next to him.
"Hey boo."
"Hey"
"What's the matter"
"Nothing"
"Oh,okay"
"Hey, if we broke up would we still be friends?"
"Yea sure, why?"
"Just asking."
"Okay"
I thought everything was okay and that we were still together and everything would be okay. But when the bell rang and when we walked out of that building everything changed.
"Hey"
"Hey, so friends?"
"What?"
" Are we friends?"
"Oh so we aren't dating anymore?"
"I don't know"
"Oh okay well when you figure that out you know where I am."
"No please don't..."
"No, no just go"
And I walked away and went down the stairs and to my bus. Just to my luck I walked all the way to the front and my bus wasn't there and at that point I was already with my friends balling my eyes out. We turned back around and we started walking towards the end.
Then we passed his bus. I was walking with tears running down my face and probably mascara too. I could see him looking through the window he looked like he had just did the most horrible thing he could ever do.
When I reached the bus I texted him and said " I'm sorry that I did this and I'm sorry that I can't be without you. I miss you.I need you. I love you"
Then he texted me back a few minutes later " I saw you crying, please don't cry you're to beautiful to cry. I miss you too and love you." *
It was absolutely horrible I wish that I had said something but I didn't. And on the bright side today is a Wednesday yay I have church with him tonight. But right now I have to get ready for school and get through that.
