Together Forever And Always

Happy Birthday

       You walked around the room thinking, remembering Axel's sad expressions and words before he left.

"Yeah right, having a heart makes me weak~"

A frown appeared on your face as you sat onto the table.
While you let your legs fall from the table, your foot knocked the bag, making some of the contents inside jostle. You slipped off the table and looked into the bag noticing all sorts of weapons and experimental devices. Your heart raced with a tinge of fear. "Was Axel going to use these things on me?" you thought.

Closing the bag you heard a voice behind you. You gasped turning around, bumping into Axel, causing you to lose your balance.
Axel quickly caught you in one of his arms and you looked up at him with shocked eyes. "Are you okay (Y/n)?" he asked. You smiled at him and he balances you to your feet one again.

His eyes glance down to where you were kneeled, noticing the large bag he had placed there earlier.
His face shown a disturbed or depressed expression, but then again,his expression had darkened quite quickly. He looked lost, his whole being wasn't completely there. He's trying to fight it, fight something. Axel pulled out a small glass vile with a frosted colored letters.

"Vexen uses those types of viles for his "special" experiments, why would Axel have it?"

The small vile of pills rattled as he tapped them into his hand.

It looked as if he was shaking, you opened your mouth only to have whispering words exit your mouth. "Axel a-are you-?"
You closed your mouth immediately when he spoke. "You saw everything didn't you ?" You look at him with an anxious expression. "S-saw what?" As he looked at you he narrowed one of his eyes then looked down towards the bag.

You look down at where he looked to then glanced up into Axel's eyes. Your eyes start to dart around the room while trying to find the words to speak.
"I-I-u-um-w-well-I mean-uh-I was just, c-curious~" you said with a nervous expression.

Axel's gaze fell, then met your eyes once again replying, "C-Cause you weren't supposed to see. But since you did might as well explain right?" he paused putting his hands onto his hips. "Vexen wanted me to e-experiment on you, how the human body would react, on how-you have feelings or a-a heart~"

Leaving you and the bag, he walked over to a chair, but stops in the middle of the room.

The silence was broken with the sound of deep crackling. You slowly walked over to stand in front of him.
His fists were clenched so tightly, the joints to his hands snapped violently. You gently lay your hand to his. He blinked, broken from his daze. He looked away, then pulled his hands back soon after.

You were worried about Axel, he's never acted like this before.

Axel walked past you sitting in the chair, putting a hand to his face, and tapping his foot quickly.
He seemed to be bothered or frustrated.

Mustering some courage, you speak up. "Axel is something-well, wrong-I-I mean, I understand if you don't want to talk about it you normally don't wanna talk but I-?" your words caught in your throat.

Axel looks at you then at his hands, letting out a sigh as he leans back in the chair. Angered that he couldn't find the words to speak, he let out a growl, his hand thundering down onto the arm of the chair. Cowering from his actions, you flinched.

Once he removed himself from the chair, he kneeled and rummaged through the bag. He retrieved an odd looking object. You looked at him with confusion and worry. " I...um" He put the object in his pocket and looked at you. "What...I'm not going to use this on you~

Axel walked toward the closet door "here put this on"
He threw his clothes to you. You look at him with eyebrows raised and saying with a laugh, "Um~" He looks at you and replies, "put it on"
"But these are your clothes" you said embarrassedly and whining softly.

Axel cut you off, an annoyed gleam in his eye. "Oh- just put it on~"
Sighing you started to remove your shirt. Axel was still in the room, watching you. You glare at him saying..."You gonna take a picture~?"
He blushes leaving the room "S-Sorry~" Then closed the door behind him. You changed out of your old clothes and in to his. They were much lankier than what you wear.

The sleeves went past your hands and the pants were to long.

After a few minutes the door opened and Axel walked over to you.
"Um ,(Y/n)-I-I- wanna...could I-I was wondering if I could have that talk you mentioned~?" Axel said with a hurting appearance to his features.
Blinking a couple times, you sat "Alright~" you said as you smiled up at him softly.
He sat next to you, trying to find his words.

"Th-The reason I-"
Cutting him off by holding his hands, you spoke with a soft calming voice. "I'm here for you, Axel. Like I've always been here for you..so you can tell me anything you need to, you don't have to hold back anymore~"
Axel looks at you, speechless.

Axel glanced up to you sadly, his eyes had a wondering gleam of love.
"(Y/n) I-I don't want to hurt you, I never wanted to hurt you" he trails off, tears flooding his eyes quickly and gripping at his head.
Now in panic mode, worried if he would have one of his outbursts, you stand up quickly searching for the bottle. While searching the room you come across the chair he was sitting in. Taking the bottle quickly you hastily walk it back to him.

You opened the bottle and poured the small pills into his hand, he seemed like his normal self. But you weren't going to take any chances. "Axel ?" you asked.
He just sat there with his head resting in his arms still holding the pills.
Sitting down next to him you hugged him close. Rocking him gently, trying to comfort him. He moved his head to rest on your shoulder and whispered into your ear. "Thank you~"

You leaned your head on his, and said. "It's going to be okay I promise Axel~"
Scooting over to sit in front of him you held his hands once again and asked. "Is there something you were you going to tell me earlier?"
He bit his lower lip, speaking softly. "The way I act the way I do now, it's-I've tried not to let it get to me, but my memories-they just keep flooding back, I've tried finding help but nothing ever works. My parents, which were such evil people, loved to see my pain, loved to abuse and t-torture me. No matter how many time I begged them to stop, they'd laugh. Always filming my beatings, making me relive those nightmares by forcing me to watch them. It's all scarred into me"

You stared at him in awe as you listened to his words.

"I take these to try to forget, or else I end up hurting people.
When I look at you-I-I see my self. The once soft gentle child, mutated into a watchful, fearing, antagonistic human"
Sadness washed over you, and you fell into him gipping on to him tightly.

"Then why do you want me around if all it makes you do is suffer ?" You replied.

"Cause'-I suffer either way. If I look at you or if you leave it's still hurts-I can't hide from hurting. You were the only one I loved, you made me feel like I had a heart. You made me feel somewhat-whole again."

Tears began to drop down your cheeks slowly. Axel held you close, drying your tears. "I don't want you to cry~"
"Please don't cry (Y/n), I-I want you to smile-it makes me happy when you smile."

Drying your tears, you sniffled softly while giving him a smile.

"Speaking of happy, I'm taking you somewhere~"
With a tilt of your head you reply curiously. "W-Where~?"

Picking you up to stand on your feet, he holds your hand with a smirk. "That is a secret~" You two left castle oblivion quietly.
Feeling the wind on your cheeks, you take a breath of fresh air, walking with Axel starting a conversation along the way. Still wondering where you two are heading.