Ashes of the Innocent

I would be lying if I said I have never thought of killing myself.

Who hasn't thought about kiling themselves, as a kid?

How can you grow up in this world and not think about it?

I was eight years old when I had my first ever suicidal thought.

I was in elementary school; I don’t remember what grade I was in… All I knew was that I hated it.

It had started like any normal day; I woke up at six and got ready for school.

I ate my breakfast of oatmeal; my favorite food ate the time and headed off to school.

I guess you could say I was a loner.

Ok, I was a loner.

I had the most unflattering clothes to wear; due to the fact we had to wear school uniforms.

I wore big glasses that never left my face except on the weekends.

My mom would always pull my hair in a tight ponytail exposing my face.

And worst of all, I was socially awkward.

Nobody can make friends being socially awkward, unless someone is really persistent on being your friend, which in my case never really happened.

People tried to be friendly with me but I would always push them away from me because sadly at the time I thought I was better than anyone else.

However, I was far from being better than them.

My grades were never great and I always found a way to screw things up (I still do), and I had bad hygiene.

It was easy saying that I was far superior to anyone else but the real challenge was living up to it.  

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So what do you guys think?

I've been having this idea for a very long time and I have decided that I should post it on Wattpad.

So should I go on or should I just stop ?

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