WILL YOU SMILE FOR ME? (STEREK)

2: Can't you see me smile for you?

STILES

That's it! I've had enough with this pack! They are so oblivious! And you'd think it was just Scott but no, not even one of them can even imagine that I would ever move on from Lydia.

"Yeah, right. You're over her..." Erica had told me once. "That's is so not true! Anyone can see the way you look at her, like she's the most precious thing in the world. That hasn't changed a bit. And you've always been protecting her with your life!"
And she's right, my feelings for Lydia have never changed, and she had always been precious to me. It was just not that kind of care. More like a brotherly thing.

But I could see why everyone was confused. I mean, how could I be mad at them for being fooled by my master plan to let everybody think that I liked girls. I guess I'd been too good of an actor.

Scott, being the most dense person you could ever meet, had no way to discover the truth. Poor boy. But I couldn't help but feel disappointed every time my best friend would say:

"Come on Stiles, I know it hurts that she got back with Jackass, you don't need to hide it from me."
He just would not buy that maybe I wasn't actually hurting. It didn't feel good to think that your best friend ever didn't know you more than that.

However, I have to say that the one who surprised me the most was Isaac. He usually could see what others couldn't. Especially in me since we had grown closer together – don't ask me how that happened, I wouldn't for the life of me be able to tell you what the hell was going on.

Or maybe I was actually more surprised at Jackson, since he should have been able to recognise the love I didn't have for Lydia. And for God's sake, his best friend was gay! He should have noticed the symptoms! But no, he was too busy admiring himself and explaining to Lydia how she made the right choice by getting back with him.

And let's talk about said gay best friend, shall we? HE, out of all people, should have known I was GAY!! Or maybe he found me so unattractive that his gay-dar didn't activate around me.

Huh!

You know what? Scratch all of that. The one who definitely had me the most flabbergasted was Derek. Did he have enhanced senses or what? Cause how could a werewolf not notice someone always looking at him that way, smiling at him that way. True I was careful as much as possible not to let my feelings show when I knew he was watching – Hello! Why would I want him to know? – , but it couldn't be working all the time could it?

Well it seemed like it could.

So anywho. Since none of my so-called friends would believe me when I said I'd gotten over Lydia Martin – it seemed like the most plausible end to my plan in my opinion – then I wasn't gonna try and convince them of it anymore. I was going to keep on pissing everyone with everything I could imagine would be a reason to love Lydia.

Suck on that all of you. You don't believe me? You will suffaaaaah!