just random things'

III

To the boy I thought I had actual feelings for,

We've spent a couple of days talking and through those days of my feelings getting fucked up, I have come to realize that I only see you as a friend. Honestly, I am really glad that I did.

You showed me your true nature with your never ending stories and I did the same. The nervous wreck that I was slowly changed into someone more calm and relaxed whenever we get in touch. As time flies, I thankfully came to my senses and realised that I never really liked you back then, I only liked the thought of you. The thought of you excluding the little things I never knew about you until you became my friend.

I was just too desperate for love not knowing I don't need it at all. I was too desperate to make you mine but you made me realize that I dont have too. All I need is a good friend and a good friend is what you are. We started out as friends and I gladly don't feel the need to go beyond that anymore.

I guess this marks my goodbye. Not to you nor to us, but to the feelings and emotions I had mistaken for as love but turned out to be just a short lived infatuation.