Staying away from Dan is really hard work. we live together and have the Radio show, but so far I'm managing it.
I wake up early on a morning leave Dan a little note saying 'I'm seeing Carrie for the day and I'll be back tonight,' knowing he wouldn't be up when I left, normally I don't get home until half 11 then I just go to bed, it's been this way for about 2 months now.
I'm still doing videos, I record them when I know he's going to be out.
I wish I could tell him, but sadly, I can't
I know he isn't homophobic in the slightest, but I literally can't tell him I'm in love with him. Today I can't avoid him since me him and Carrie are filming a video together.
At half 10 Carrie turns up with her camera. I listen to the conversation from the kitchen, still avoiding Dan for as long as I can.
"Hey Carrie, you ready for a awesome day with me and Phil," "I am indeed Daniel, I haven't seen either of you in forever, it's been far too long I miss you guys," "What do you mean you haven't seen either of us? I wake up most mornings with a note from Phil saying he's seeing you for he day?."
Oh crap.
I hurried into the room before Carrie could reply "Hey Carrie how're you doing?,"
"I'm good thanks Phil, what about you,"
"I'm fine."
Really phil? Everyone knows 'I'm fine' means you're not actually fine urh.
"Erm Phil Dan says you've be-," "Oh yeah that it's been a different Carrie I know from back home don't worry about it."
luckily both of them believed that little lie.
We started setting up the Camera, we all decided to do a q&a with a twist, if we refuse to answer, we've got to do a shot.
yay for drinking.
The questions started off normal and weird like always,
"Oo Phil this one is for you," Dan days smiling at me, I couldn't help but smile back
"Who is your YouTube crush?."
I just smiled at him and picked up a shot, it burned going down but I wasn't going to let that show.
"PHIL PHIL WHO IS SHE!" Carrie and Dan practically both said at the same time
"That's for me to know and you not to find out."
The rest went pretty smoothly, Carrie ended up having 2 shots, Dan had 2 and I ended up having 4 more, all of the questions were based around who I liked.
We had finished filming about an hour ago, but carried on drinking, all joking around being idiots, slowly getting more intoxicated.
"So, Phil are you going to tell us who she is," "Carrie, please can we drop it I'm not going to tell you who I'm in love with because if they find out it will pretty much end me"
"Oh come on Phil just tell us," "Fuck sake Dan just leave it," "why are you getting so mad at me for asking and you're being all nice to Carrie for asking? What's your problem?."
no reply.
"Fuck sake Phil, is it Carrie?," "No it's not," "Then who is it," "I'm not telling you Dan so just drop it."
I could see Carrie staring at us, shocked at the fact I was swearing.
"No Phil, just tell me I'm suppose to be your best friend were supposed to tell each other everything," "I can't tell you Dan."
