Her Smile
Written by Alexander Empleo III
Her smile... look I don't know why I'm doing this such effort to write this whole true story of mine about my sincere, romantic, passionate feelings I felt for this girl, again! She doesn't even believe me anyway. She always thinks that this is my way of greatest revenge at her lyrics prank, in which I will never forget and forgive her for the rest of my life. But this is true! I swear! All these words I put in here right now are coming from my fingers. Of course my fingers were controlled by my heart :D. And literally it is way nothing to compare than the sweet love poem she gave at me last time on messenger about her feelings towards me I'm pretty sure she only got it on Philippine History Book. And Binay or Magellan or Noynoy Couangco wrote it for sure. I'm about to feel there's a butterfly in my stomach thing' on what she has said but I will not believe on it also. Now we're even :P. But still...Her smile... Okay let's start! Again.
So its begins on...are you sure you gonna read it missjoy? It's gonna be long and useless if you don't believe on it ;D. Okay okay, so its begins on that day back in high school...that day I saw her smile for the first time! But let's not just jump in too quickly basin kiligon si missjoy mag Damovees napud sya sa ako. Gekilig jud ko sa iyang Damovees ayieee :P
March 7th 2017. As far as I remember, I don't remember this girl. She was lost in my memory for so long. I already forgot to think any single idea of her. For me, she was gone. I already moved on. That's what I thought. Until that day...
Yes! Fourth year Highschool najud mi! When I was in Highschool, I was always in the first section because I was smart. First year to Fourth year, first section. That's how smart I am. I've always remember who are my classmates and my classmate's names, except in the fourth year. There are so many new students in our room I was surprised! At the first day of school I am late. I spent my first 1 hour, maybe 30 minutes, 5 minutes! in the class looking and scanning with those unfamiliar faces, and playing with my new phone LG and it is touchscreen. It's like you are a god when you have a touchscreen phone at that time, my classmates never stop worshiping and admiring me on that day. And that's I only remember what I did on the first day of school. I admit I have many crush in our section because my classmates are pretty, and we are outnumbered. We are only 17 boys out of almost 70 students in there...the rest are all girls. Heaven! 4 gays. But I'm a very shy type boy. I can barely talk to a girl like I'm gonna freeze to death when a girl talks or sit next to me. I'm an NGSB. In love, I only got hurt not because of breakups but because when I see one of my crush got a boyfriend. I'm very, very, shy boy I don't even have courage to talk even ask a girl's name. Next day, back to normal day I decided to wake up and go to school early. We are the cleaners assigned on that morning. I am so early that I do all the work and complain that I've just finish everything before my cleaner groupmates arrived and being accused that I am the one who did not flushes the poop in the CR. Grabe kaau toh na issue bah haha si Regalado man diay toh ang nalibang. And suddenly, my world stops. Everything is in slow motion, my heart stops for a while, there's a girl entering in the room! She is so flawlessly white! Oh it's only Abella. I remember that. But the next girl behind Abella comes in. I stare at her. Who is this girl? One of our new classmate? I never see her before. Wow. She is so cute! She looks like the virgin mary. Simple, clean, shy and gosh her hair smells amazing when she walked by in front of me. One by one my classmates arrived, each minute the crowd is growing. Its 8am, our first class starts. Supposedly it should be 7:30am but most of the time our adviser always came to the class late. I waited patiently at the attendance that day. I smiled when she was called. Yes! I got her name! Her name is same as the one of our teachers I remember.
When I like a girl at the first sight, I used to observe her face again, and again before I can call her my crush. So started to constantly steal a glance at her. Fuck she smile. I repeat, she smile! Damn! That smile my God! She is so much more beautiful when she smiles! She smile at her friend. I mean for all the girls in there, this girl has the most unique smile ever! I cannot forget that smile of her until now. That day the virgin mary girl is now my officially new crush and that means I will be avoiding you in all cost for the rest of the school year. I'm lame and talawan shy shitty boy. That's how creepy I am back there. After that moment, every time she passed me, walked in front of me with her fresh morning fragrance hair, fuck my heart melts! Her smile uggh and I walk away as far as I can. I secretly stare at her at the distance and praying that she will might notice me also. But never did happen. I don't even know if there is a chance she will be even notice me. I'm just a normal looking ugly boy with an ugly haircut. She is so shy type at that time also she doesn't even look around except to her friend who owns a popular halo-haloan in our school that time. I think they went to the same section before they went here in our class. But I still hope one day she will notice me, somehow. Back to normal school days, time passed still, hours ticking, Rarugal, Jovert, Robert, Pope and Sabanal became my close friends because we are seatmates. DLP sucks. Dammit we always get short in time to answer all the questions before we even finish writing all everything in the blackboard. But the bright side of it was our teacher always leaves us behind and we can do whatever we want to. We just roam around with a little help of our genius classmates...our future is bright as our principal's forehead! Then one day, it's recess time. Our next subject is physics. Jovert, Robert, Pope and I buy food. Usually they are my recess buddies cuz it is so awkward to go down alone with yourself. Rarugal is the Batcom and usually they are always busy and never come back in the classroom after recess. He is my seatmate at my right side, and Sabanal is at my left side. Usually after we buy foods, we standby at the terrace and making a dance video of nickimanaj's Superbass. It's so very fun our classmates one by one just join in with our dance craze while I'm taking the video using my new phone LG 6XS touchscreen 8mega pixel first touchscreen phone and the most awesome phone in the world at that time. The physics class is about to start so I went inside the classroom first. But there's someone sitting at my chair. Who's that? Pink uniform...a girl..uhm..it..I step up closer...mmhh.. its, mmh...uh she's...oh..uhmm...My eyes got bigger! Suddenly my brain urges my body to flee away as soon as possible but my feet is freezing! My heart starts to pump so fast...you...you know that feeling that like a 1000000Volts of electric just shocks you from the head to toe! I don't know what to do what to feel I'm paralyze my emotions got mix up with my head so badly I can't even remember any physics class! I'm now about five inches closer from her. Due overwhelming shock, I'm about to turn around and forget my chair..."Hi" she said, Smiling. "Pwede dari sako mu ingkod sa imung ingkuran? Empleo imu name bah?" A very soft voice coming from the girl. "Umhh Sure hehe! wha...why not hehe dari na lang ko mo ingkod sa bangko ni Rarugal." As I about to sit down, my feet are shaking, my hands are shaking more, my heart is about to explode...is the virgin mary girl just says Hi, smiled, and sitting next to me right now??? I could not put it into words on how do I feel at that moment. The girl I used to stare in a distance every day, the girl who blew me away with her smiles, the girl I prayed somehow, she could notice me one day, just said "Hi" to me...SMILED, and fucking sitting next to me right now!!! My God! That's one of my greatest moments in my entire life! I thank God I'm alive! God really do answers prayers in the right place in the right time. Her smile...with gums ugghh she is so cuter than ever! Much much more beautiful in close up! But I hide my feelings like a ninja. I don't what to reveal anything I might get embarrassed. That's my talent, I'm good at hiding my true feelings to someone I like and pretend to be cold as Arnold Shishinegger. I can't even barely twist my neck towards her that time. The aura, the intensity, started to consume me, just knowing she's sitting next to me. The physics class started. I thought she would go back to her chair but she did not stand up. I grab my bond paper, shaking. We started to write. My mind is black-out. I don't understand my feelings anymore, I describe it like in a horny stage something like that, it was overwhelming just sitting next to her, and she sitting at my chair! I always think about it over and over again inside my head. Finally, she looked at me again, I looked at her, our eyes meet each other, it was like entering heaven. And then she smiles. UGH! Instant Climax! Tower up! I'm wet! But I remained cold as Shishinegger. And then she leaned towards me as she speak, "Empleo, unsay pasabot aning third law of motion?" Her hair smells so good. I don't know what to say for 5 second I'm speechless. God her eyes, I just can't even stare at her directly. As she looked at me my internal organs were melting inside. I just look at her lips and gums while she was talking to ease my nervousness. And her teeth are perfect. Ugh that gums! I don't know why every part of her is pretty amazing, even her nunal at the top of her mouth. That's my eye routine: her nunal-gums-teeth-nunal-gums-teeth. But sooner they lost my mind, I just suddenly wanted to kiss her like there's no tomorrow like its end of the world! But still I remained cold as Shishinegger. I need to focus. "Umh Donaire, Newton's Third Law of Motion states that in every action, there is always an equal and opposite reaction. We apply it to a bird that flap its wings, as the air goes backward, the bird goes forward. And the more the bird put force as its flaps the more acceleration it can get...something like that..." I used my brain until to its limit, whatever it takes to impress her. And it works! Maybe. Sort of. But she listen to me alertly. And again she was leaning towards me ughh her hair distracts me every second! It really smells so good like she just came out from a fresh bath of flower petals! We laugh, we smile, we kiss (in my imagination) she is quietly genius she knows everything. I'm also very impress. It's like there is connection between us, we can easily understand each other. I don't know but I'm dying inside. She is just way too perfect! That's one of the best physics time ever in my life. I will never, never forget that. I mean it's very crazy in all levels that the girl I secretly admired just pop-up at my chair all sudden! Lord God you are a psychic you really know everything! After the physics class, she stood up and said, "Thank you Empleo!" in a soft smooth cute voice. "You're welcome Donaire." She went back to her chair waving her hand a goodbye at me, smiling :D At last, she smiles...at me! I just stared at her, still in trauma. Then she left. As she turned around, I felt like my stomach is twisted and my blood just still rushing to my brain so fast, it produces a surge of happy hormones distributed to my mouth, I cannot stop smiling! I went back to my chair and can still smell her scent. "Ahhhh!" I was like, "I will enter this classroom late again tomorrow, I will." In all smart boys in our classroom, she would run into Uba, Palad, Sean, Hudson or Kevin for help, they are much smarter than me, but why me? I felt like I just won a lottery that day. And that's the first time we talked with my greatest crush...the first and the Last. It's colder than Arnold Shishinegger.
