I LOVE YOU... ya that's what yOU said and I know you meant it as you sniffed, slide, side to side. I was like let me get a little cause you know I don't like it much as you but I just wanted to be on your same vibe so I could accept what you were saying was true. As much as you meant it, I knew the next day when shit was real, you couldn't bring yourself to live out those white people promises. You wanted to love me as much as you said you did but I knew, it is what it is. Just like I told myself, I just wanted to be in your presence by any means. So I would wait. In those days, when you were back on cloud 9. Cause it is always guaranteed, that in those times, you were only mine, for just that short time. I have never been stupid but yes I have for the Cupid. And so I would wait as you roamed the world. Your parents, friends and I said, he is to old for that type of life. And all of them cut you off but not me. Not me. I wanted to wait for your high, Hi. And even though I wasn't accustomed to the high, I would do it just to be in your presence. And hear those sweet words I longed for. To live in the dreams your sold. The dreams of me giving my soul just for your love. Ya, I knew I was to good for you but I did not care. You were what I wanted and needed and I was selfish for my own pleasure. You fthinking, oh she loves me and she will be ride or die while I get high but truthfully in your high I wanted my high, Hi. I'm sorry for deceiving you when you thought you was doing me. Didn't they tell you that I was a #savage (in my Rihanna voice) I took your wrong doings to feed my hunger. And when I was done now we are no longer. I didn't mean to hurt you. We were 2 broken souls looking for a temporary satisfaction but I went to far. Please forgive me because I forgave you for all the hurt that was really my pleasure....
