You jumped up from the table and ran into the bathroom to take a shower. Today you had the day off of work. You haven't had one in months so it felt good to know that you could relax. You hated your job at that shitty restraunt a mile down from your apartment. The owner Mr.Ashland was very degrading and all the workers hated him. But if you wanted your paycheck you had to kiss his ass. Thank god you were his favorite. You undressed and turned on the shower waiting for the water to get warm. You glanced in the mirror. Gross. You grabbed the plastic bag you had to put on over the cast for your broken fingers. You tied it around your wrist with a rubber band and hopped in the shower. You turned the nob and turned around embracing the warm water. Oh sweet jesus. You spun around only to get a face full of steaming hot water. You fell back into the wall and slammed your shoulder on the side of the tub. Not being able to open your eyes yet you crawled to find the the nob. You turned the nob as fast as you could and the water died down. You layed in the tub wiping your eyes. Your shoulder was in an immense amount of pain. Don't be a pussy you've been through worse. You stood up and walked to the mirror. You turned around to see a huge bruise on your shoulder. That shit is going to hurt. You picked up your towel and dirty clothes and walked to your room. Meadow had left for work so you didn't have to hear her asking questions about whether you were ok. You put on some grey leggings and a black Nike sweatshirt. You slipped on some black hightops and put your hair in a messy bun. You walked to the bathroom to do your makeup. You stared at yourself with disgust. You were always self loathing but today it was more than usual. You hated every inch of your long H/C hair and every single freckle on your face. You hated your dimples and the way your body was shaped. According to the girls at work "your eyebrows are flawless". You thought of them as another flaw to your face. You had slightly tanner skin as you were mixed, your mom being Asian and dad African American and you hated that to. But then came your eyes. One blue and one green. God you were so gross. Oh well. You sighed and left the bathroom deciding not to do your makeup. You laughed and mumbled "you can't use makeup to fix yourself (y/n)".
