Dear World,
I hate you...sometimes. Sometimes you're the best thing that's happened to me. However, today, well today you're just more likable than bearable.
Today, I sit with my family's new puppy (got her 3 days ago) after, not too long ago, crying every night after losing one of our other dogs.
Today, I sit with my brother, who is perfectly in love with his boyfriend and you, dear world, better be okay with that.
Today, I talked to my friends, who all want to fit in and I know for a fact there's a place for them, because their that awesome.
Today, I'm passing all my classes (the 5-6 hours are finally worth it!), and yeah, their not all perfect A's, but I'm a teen and today, as a teen, I don't care about that A+++ life.
Today, I didn't cry after hearing sad things or think of the "small things".
Today, I feel fit after months of not (even though I haven't worked out in two weeks, eaten less than 10 salads in my life willingly and had at least a pop every couple days for at least a month).
Today, I feel proud to be from South Korea, even though I can't speak a word (adopted and also, recently, proud).
Today, I feel proud after being ashamed for forever. And sickened by a simple reflection. And annoyed with all the things I can't do (and its a long list).
But, in all honesty, if you've taught me anything, it's to learn. Learn to be proud. Learn to stand up. Learn to care. Learn to live.
Because those who don't learn, need to. We need to know these things if we want to love ourselves to the fullest.
Because loving yourself isn't a religion thing. Nor is it a natural thing in society. It should be a normal thing, but it isn't. It's something we all need to learn. Even the richest woman in the world who seems just full of herself might be the most insecure. It's a learning thing.
Today, I love myself and I want to share this. Because I'm no longer scared of looking in the mirror and finding flaws. I'm no longer scared of being belittled by peers because of something I can't do perfect. I don't have to be that weird overachiever that does more research than needed (unless I want to because things get interesting after a while).
I still care about almost every word you say and every action you do. But I care about myself more than I used to. And, whether anyone notices, I care less about you (sorry, love you too).
I'm really hoping you root for me as I root for every one of you. But love is cruel and we don't always get the love we give in return.
And sometimes you find you love people you've never even met.
And that's the truth, because world, as much as I love me, I love every one of you.
Love,
1show1life (@Maybe_Myself)
