Dark Stories

Shadows

   when I look outside all I see are the dark and gloomy reminders of what this world used to be. I can't see anything... but what I can hear is just...frightening and, and... horrible but that's not the worst part, the worst part is that when you go outside you still can't see and most don't come back... I think they become what those horrid noises are. I made it back from outside... once, those things took a chunk out of me... I almost died I lost 80% of my blood... but with this, bite I can understand their screams and whispers... and I can see... them, watching us all... me mostly I don't know what they want. They can't be near light or light can't be near them I guess, every time there is the light dies... or disappears. I don't know what to do anymore I'm at a loss of thought... maybe I should end it all and let them take me. I wonder what it would be like on their side, I wonder if they even see us as we are... or are we something that scares them or maybe they don't even see us... sometimes I wish I could be one, just for one day... just to see what it's like... just for once I want to know what's going on... with this, mutated planet we used to call earth, I don't know what to call this place anymore... there's where to go. I've heard there's places that are better than here... I doubt it though, I guess it's mice to think about... that maybe not all this world has gone to hell... kinda brings warmth to your heart, I guess... but I try not to think like that... we have lost people like that... some"BAM!" straight to the head.. most left and never came back. Around here people don't get to attached to people at all... it's..quiet but not peaceful this is anything but peaceful... this is pain tears and sadness, there's no such thing as peace or happiness anymore... not since the darkness came and took everything that was once loved by us all away from us... why would they do that...what do we have to do with any of this at all... i can't think of anything anymore... I'm just done trying to figure this out, anything at all, it's just not worth the thought process... anymore. Everyone else is going insane trying to figure this out im not ending up like that... i refuse to even stoop down to that level... i couldn't do it in all this, going crazy is the last thing you want to do nowadays... no one needs it nor wants to deal with anymore crazy. I am losing faith in the light or that there is life out there at all... how could anyone believe that with no proof of actual exsistence out there, I know I don't. Sometimes I wonder if we're even living or if we died long ago and we just don't know it, or maybe we are just stuck here... How could that happen to us... I don't remember death, maybe that attack from those things killed me, What if we all are dead and this... is hell I can't even begin to think of those what ifs, it's too painful... I would rather sit here and be thoughtless, like a mindless zombie... That sounds better than any of this. The thoughts, the pain... the hopelessness, losing every will I have, I can't stand it. I can't sleep at night they never stop, their whispers hurt the most of all it feels like my head is exploding... like everything is stopping in time and trying to come for me... why must it be me who hears this all, the screams... the voices, and whispers that kill. I'm getting weaker and weaker the more the more I fight the voices... i can't block their sounds... sometimes, in the middle of the night... I wake up screaming from all the whispers and voices, it gets to be to much to bare... when I wake up with tears... no one cares, no one checks to see if I'm okay or anything... I'm so alone around these people... it sounds weird but i feel more alone when I'm surrounded by these people than I do when I'm away from them. There's nothing for me to do besides sit on a window leadge and stare out at the emptiness filled with whispers and darkness that we used to call outside... it can't be like this forever... can it? I don't think anyone could handle that especially me... I think i'll blow my head off if I have to hear and feel this forever, foever like this... would feel longer than forever. I couldn't handle that... I can barely handle it now and it's only been a month since the... attack, that's the only time that this group has cared about me...  I don't remember any time before that, 'cause there wasn't... it's fend for yourself around here, but after that...  it was, nice to see them care, nice to see them work together for the good of someone else other than their selves... it was a short change though nothing like that sticks around for long... it's a horrible thought...  that i just can't stand... why are we even like this, we should have hope, we should be a team and help eachother out... why is it every man for himself, it's really pointless to me... I guess thats how it is nowadays... I guess that the shadows took out humanity away from us, maybe they don't want us to be a team at all maybe thats what kills them. Then again maybe it's not, maybe they don't care if we are a team or not... maybe, they can't even  die... sometimes the bad thoughts drowned me and I can't breath or move, all i can do is just sit there and let it happen as more tears fall and then I black out I can't feel nothing, hear anything or see anything its just blissful nothingness... at some point you ask yourself, is this really going to be how we live from now on? This just can't be real... let this be a horrible dream that seems to last forever but are actually only five minutes... please if this is real just strike me dead... just please end this pain... this suffering, this nothingness we call life now. As I grab the gun I think this and then... I pull the trigger and everything is just... gone forever and always. 

THE END.