Everything hurts. My heart feels like someone has a cold hand wrapped tightly around it. Clutching onto the knife, I slowly make my way down the face of the cliff. Please don't be disappointed mother. Descending down the steep rocks, I softly run my finger along the familiar etched out name in the handle. Noah. That name brings me pain. Which is why I chose to take his knife in particular. Father was a coward. A soft breeze billows around me, carrying flowers from the meadow above. Fawna is independent enough by now, I don't have to feel any kind of guilt. I reach the bottom of the cliff and softly start to sing to myself.
"♫You're not alone♫"
The words are familiar and remind me of my mother.
"♫together we stand♫"
I slowly walk around trying to find the place I used to avoid.
"♫I'll be by your side you know I'll take your hand♫"
I look around.
"♫when it gets cold and it feels like the end♫"
I find what I was looking for.
"♫there's no place to go, you know I won't give in♫"
I walk towards it.
"♫no I won't give in♫"
I slowly kneel down in the same spot my mother died.
"♫keep holding on♫"
I slowly trace my finger along the blade of the knife.
"♫cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through♫"
I raise the knife.
"♫just stay strong♫"
I gently rest the tip of the blade on my chest.
"♫cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you♫"
I take a moment to think back on my life.
"♫there's nothing you can say♫"
Fawna will be upset.
"♫there's nothing you can do♫"
But I can't do this any longer.
"♫there's no other way when it comes to the truth♫"
I stab the knife into my heart
"♫keep holding on♫"
I manage to choke out one more line of the song before the world fades to black. I barely even felt it.......
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I won't be missed
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