Why Dont We Imagine

But I liked you first (Zach Herron)

AN~ So this is kinda based off things that are happening to me so if this goes into a lot of detail I'm sorry. I just need to get this off my chest.

You and Zach have been best friends for almost a year and you have been there for the breakups, the hard times, pretty much everything. You were always there when no one else was. You started to feel different when you were with him you felt happier more energetic. You started to like him. You defended him no matter what. You lost a couple friends because you cared too much. You walked him to most of his classes. You made sure he was happy even if it hurt you. 

One day you told him how you felt and you instantly regreted it. He said he was sorry and that he just wanted to stay friends. You were upset and now feeling vulnerable. You guys Facetimed every night. He flirted with you here and there. And it confused you. You told your best friend about it and she told you he was just gonna play you.  So once again you defended him and said he wouldn't do that. 

Later on, Zach seemed distant like he was ignoring you. You let it be you didn't want to seem to clingy. Zach texted you and asked to facetime and of course, you said yes. He said he tried again with Kaya ( Not gonna use her real name) and he said it didn't feel right because he had feelings for someone else. He looked you in the eyes and said your name. Zach smiled and he seemed so happy. You thought you were doing something right. 

Then the next morning you texted him and asked if he was gonna come get you. He responded but it wasn't him it was a new girl. She laughed at you. So you texted him and asked why Sarah ( Not using her real name either) was laughing at you for asking a question. He left you on read. You were pissed but you didn't tell him. You started writing Failure on your wrist. You tried to text him but he always left you on read after two minutes of talking. You felt like you were drifting away again. Zach seemed really happy all the time he would sing in the halls and hum to himself. but would avoid you. You always saw him with Sarah. You had to go to school just to see this every day. 

So one day you asked if they were together and he said no, which made your stomach do flips. So the rest of the day you were happy. You got home and called your best friend and she said that Sarah and Zach were dating. You were immediately back in an upset mood. You looked at her and said but he said he wasn't. You texted him and said why did you lie to me? He responded with yes I am with Sarah. I'm sorry for not telling you but she makes me so happy and idk how to put it. At this point, you are completely broke.

He said you are clingy and it's kinda annoying. So now you have more words on your wrist. Words like Fucked up, Clingy, Annoying, Too easy, Walked on, Just a friend, worthless and why me? Now you sit in your room and wonder what the hell did I do to deserve any of this. You care too much. You get easily attached. So now you are done with dating for a few. Your done trying. Your mindset is if someone wants you then they can come for you.